February 13

"Kenak kitak parking sia?"

2011-10-31T22:21:00.002-07:00

The question pop up while i was reporting my case to the policewomen.

I could only answer her "mun nya dah nak jadi...gney2 pun jadi juak" (if things were to happen, it'll happen anyway)

In my heart I have a thousand answers. few of them would be
1) Nama tempat ya "Parking Space" obviously its a place to park a car.
2) I've been parking my car there since I could drive my car which was in yr 2000, nothing ever happened to me till last Saturday.
3) There were lots of people there, plus a school's family day there. Who would thought the theft is courage enough to break into my car!!

Anyways, like what Karthi said, its an Area Beyond Control. It already happened ANYWAY!. What i can do in the area of my control is, dont bring any valueble AT ALL while jogging.

Was a little bid annoyed with the police service, why cant re-occurrence reports be analyzed. In Malaysia, you have to make 2 reports in order to get the case be investigated. 1 is to get you official report done, next is to go to a main branch, report again to the investigator.

I think it sounds ridiculous, but i just knew it. The next thing they asked me was "who is your suspect"? "Its hard to investigate without suspect". How should i know??? i went to jog and tonnes of people were there!!... In my view, if they knew lots of reports (lots as in more than a crime a day) made in that area, just investigate lah!!!!

Sorry Police Force, your not up to the people's KPI, please improve the way to ease people to make investigation report!!!! On the other hand, I can congratulate the JPN staffs, they really can produce the IC within 1 day!! Mine was in an hour and half!!

Neways, i've lost almost RM400, not in cash (i have only rm20 in my wallet) but in terms of charges for the lost. Lost IC rm60, renew license rm30, credit cards rm50 each, bank cards rm15 each!!. Plus RM40 credit to call all the banks just to block my cards.

The biggest lost was..... the 3 week old Blackberry Bold 9780. yup. Now I'm Back to the olden days of Storm 2.

I have got my self a second hand samsung mini too. yeay!! Such a shopaholic!!

49 Days

2011-10-28T02:15:00.000-07:00

49 is a number which passes my life a few times.

49 games unbeaten of Arsenal team in the EPL? Great!! another 49?...haha

Here comes another big 49..

49 Days till Marriage!!!!!!!! Here we go!!!

Kuching Puasa Trip

2011-08-13T13:04:00.000-07:00

1) Home and Family

Just wishin that I could have spent more time with my parents and bring cheer in the house. Lots of things to do with my house for raya!!! thank god i'm having a longer leave between 24th Aug till 5th Sept!!!!!

An affirmation for my car ~ QAQ6377 You are out of the workshop and working perfectly before 23rd of August 2011!!!!

2) Business

Really have to do many things to build up my business bigger!! The thing is only Focus. [16~12~DD]

3) Wedding

With 4 months to go, much things is to be finalized!! Ground works are almost done there!!

4) Shopping Desires

A shopaholic will always have things in mind to buy!!
Boots~Shoes~Tab~Levis~Tumi Bag for self
LED TV~Wardrobe~Tables~Gadjets for Lot 93

Time to sahur with mom and dad!!! Ciao!!

Be Grateful

2011-03-22T21:43:00.002-07:00

I attended a seminar by a magnificent couple namely Zulkifli and Fathiah, where Zul was a CEO of a multinational company and Fathiah previously owned an interior design business. Both of them retired through Passive Income Businesses and Investments. I had a privilege to enter an earlier session of the seminar, whereby there were more teachings on "how to walk the talk".

A few things I learnt from that talk was :-
1) Be Grateful with what have you achieved. In a search of financial security and having a better life, Stop for a while and think, what have you achieved now and list it down. We cannot achieve more than now if we are never to be grateful.
Things I have achieved last year
- I am grateful that I am in the business and I am Platinum in DEC 2011, that the business have changed me a lot to be wise financially and making me a better person.
- I am grateful I have a large group in my business organization that have provided me up to 15% bonuses.
- I am grateful I have capable business leaders in my organization who are very excited and committed growing their business to 21%, platinumship and beyond
- I am blessed to have a good career which has provided good active income and has brought me to many places.
- I am blessed that I am able to help my parents as much as I could when they needed me so much
- I am blessed that I have a beautiful caring fiance, that we are married on the 16th Dec 2011.
- I am grateful I have a new car
- I am gratefull I have enough and getting more to prepare for my marriage.

2) Always be kind to yourself. Stop talking about what is not happening in your life (when u expect more), coz what you say now is what you get later. Talk about your dreams, what you expect in life coz the more you affirm and believe it, more possibilities you will achieve.

3) Know what you are looking for. Know what is really important for you only then you know what to do, what to achieve, and the how will come later. Always Specify what you want. Easier for us to pray, easier for God to give, if you should get it.

4) Focus in what you want and in what you do. Have a Goal and a Deadline. You cant see what you'll achieve, but faith will get you there and fine tune the way.

I think there's more, but i dont know how to put it here. :)

I am grateful 2010 was a big year,and in 2011 I am making it Bigger!

POST 1-2011

2011-03-02T03:41:00.000-08:00

Since facebook is easier to access, the blog has been consistently ter-dilupakan.

There are ups and downs of everything. Career up-biz non exponetial, biz up-career up, biz down-career below par, career down-biz up. so which is better? For me, making more money just makes me happy coz i can go shop more! hahahahaha

Just got back from kuantan, kemaman and kertih. I can live in those places coz it got Mcd and Cineplex. Wishin that my biz grows there too! Nice beaches too!

My new affirmation and seriously I must visualize it everyday :

I am having a bigger business this year.
making $$100K is just the starting point in 2011! ;)

why affirmation? As only an average of 3% of the population would write down what they want to achieve, surprisingly 97% of them are achieving it. Affirm what you want just like you already have it, thats why we put i'm!. Next is to put belief in and make the work. Well, there's no point to write when u dont believe in urself. Whats wrong giving a shot into something that can benefit you or things that satisfy you? If you are affirming that you are getting an Samsung Galaxy Tab in the year, yet the end result is an Ipad, it ain't that bad right? Something is better than nothing. So why don't we all start affirming?

The Dream is Everything, But it takes work! - Peter Cox-

Just The Way You Are

2010-11-08T03:37:00.000-08:00

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
http://www.elyricsworld.com/just_the_way_you_are_lyrics_bruno_mars.html
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah

Up In The Air

2010-09-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya

Months n months n months since i've updated. Back from Beijing I watched Up in the Air of which starred George Clooney. Wow. how much time on air someone like him would've spent.

Non comparison to me, who only travel on air at twice a month at most, I felt sometimes, its good to travel and be at many places, I enjoyed it much. But while away, I would always feel its better to be at home. Home sweet home.

Last 11 days of Raya holidays makes me feel like going back home for good. When? To Be Identified later. When my passive income is good enough then it'll be time for me to be back there with my parents.

Ok.

I want to update my wish list that is to be completed soon.

- Samsung Galaxy S. (actually I wanted Iphone/Ipod so much, but then if i want to put a movie in, it will have to be converted, yet Galaxy S has DIVX which plays most type of movie) Jan 11
- New Levi's, New HP Shoes, New Long Pants, New Baju Kerja, and New Shirts.
- Complete Healthpoint which i am starting very very soon, pull out the inches on my belly by Nov 10 end!!
- Be more significant in My Biz by Feb 11! Passive income please come in more and more each month!
- Settle credit card Debts by January 11!
- Get a big order from Europe, coz I am traveling there when that happens!
- MacBook and Ipad by May 11!
- HD LED TV 40" by March 11.
- The Amount of Funds Needed for my wedding by June 11.

The Big Wish List
- Wedding on December 2011
- Paris- London- Rome- Barcelona 2011/2012/ 13.02.2013
- 5 Borneo highest mountain in 1 year - Kinabalu, Trusmadi, Tambuyakon, Mulu, Murut (2012)
- Retired and being a freelance speaker on the age of 30.

and MORE!!!!!!

Packing to Kemaman.

Korea

2010-05-25T22:22:00.000-07:00

Was back then in March, I went to Korea when it was snowing. I think for the Busan case, i was luckier than ever becoz it was the only day to snow during the whole winter. Nice views though, but I had only few chances to take pics.

starbucks on snow!

at TK Corporation

Nite time at Busan! I like the LED lights! (even at 11pm)

The Biggest Dept Store in the world!

This is a Big Flat Face Flange!

72 Hours

2010-03-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

In 36 hours, I'd be out of town for about 72 hours. Hopefully the net is ok there. Leh la online. sik la boring glak.

Why la the bomber jacket is still at bintulu.mls da jak mok mintak kirum2 so i'll borrow la from my friends. Its not freezing cold, but then chill enough though!. Anythin below 12 deg will definitely make my body shiver!

I have a heartfelt burning desire

2010-03-07T07:27:00.000-08:00

To Be Able To Be Back at My Home Town for Good in 2012, Having a Great Life spending my tremendous time with my Parents, my future Wife, my family, my siblings, my niece and nephews, and my friends, having an exponential passive income with financial freedom, and be able to change the lifestyle from good to being great, having known my future is incredibly successfully free and be able to achieve my dreams. Because i know, I am great in achieving goals, and I work my life's best in grabbing each of my dreams.

Chamah Ulu Sepat Reverse

2010-02-04T22:55:00.001-08:00

Mau naek gunung!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yuppy Doo!

2010-01-26T19:25:00.000-08:00

The Travel will start SOON!

Which Travel will it be?

Moving Forward

2010-01-20T02:38:00.000-08:00

I remember there was once years back that I said to myself that my dreams are almost completed..I went into a seminar and it really struck my head that there are more in life than just what I had.

More than a year ago I thought
- I already have a job, I just need to save and invest when I have enough money. I want to retire at 40.
- I have climbed my 3 mountains (Kinabalu, Tahan & Ledang) ..so why burden myself to climb others (G7).
- My current income can support me to go back to my parents at anytime.
- I can live 'sederhana' and do the daily routine happily.
- I can travel to the places I want with my savings.
- Yeah maybe the speaker was right that we need to dream big and the dream is everything..but I am comfortable now.

As time passed by.. I realized bit by bit that circumstances would change. Things Changed. Needs Changed. Family could change. Life could Change.

It really relate to me when I heard a story of an engineer who was working in the US, having only 14 days a year to spend time with his parents in Sweden and in the end of the trip, the mom can only wish him 'see u in the next 50 weeks'.

And He Taught This! :

- Write my Dreams on Something I'll See..Put Feelings and Emotions in It...And Take Actions.
- Don't look at yesterday to plan for tomorrow. Always start all over again!
- What you think is what will happen. So think good!
- A Goal should always be a scary goal..otherwise its a wrong goal!

I realized that back then
- I could never invest with the savings I have. I need bigger amount to even pay a rental income downpayment. Should I wait longer or should I find an alternative?
- I can never forgive myself not to climb the last 2 G7's. It kept on ticking in my head furthermore when i saw pictures of it!

Do U See The Missing Puzzle in The Pic? : Me

- My job income can't always support my airplane tix. I like my job, its just that I love more to have more money. I feel really2 sad when my mom asked me when is my next trip back. I want to be with them!
- I love my Parents. I love my family. I love my dearie honey. I need to be with them in Kuching!
- My savings wont be enough to get me to Paris, London, New York, Dubai and Tokyo!
- How I wish I could have everything I want, have all the time with my parents and my love, have the time to do what I like most and have a big big real estate investments!...
- Its only 1 yrs 4 months since i've started working. To turn 40 yrs old and retire is far too long to wait!

Letting a dream go, and only to squeeze in life with what I have, It feels like just NOT ME!. If I continue doing that in 10 years time without trying to leap up higher, its would just like faking the life.

B.A.C.K.-T.O.- S.Q.U.A.R.E.-O.N.E

Lets Go Back To The DREAM!

Lets affirm what is happening in My Future.

- Lets start with RM10K passive income every month. Plus having properties and investments that worth RM5 Million.
- My wedding in 2011.
- I am living back in Kuching, with my parents and with my wife(to be) in 2 yrs time.
- I am having a family of Six on my own (2020).
- I am seeing my nephews and nieces, and my sisters every weekends.
- I am finishing the Semenanjung G7 (in 3 weeks time), plus Borneo 5 highest mountain in 3 yrs time.
- I am retiring my job at 30 yrs old.
- I am working independantly, as a certified inspector, or a consultant, or a motivator in 5 yrs time.
- I am travelling around the world. Big Ben and Eye Of London, having dinner on Top of Eifel Tower, viewing from top of Statue of Liberty New York, A Relaxing trip in Bora-Bora, staying in the Burj Dubai, Having a Safari Trip in Mozambique, Africa

- I am hugging the lions cub in the safari!

- I am bringing my parents to the Bukingham Palace, The Pyramid in Cairo and yearly Umrah trip to Mecca and Medina by 2015.

- I am climbing the mountains of dreams, Climbing the icy Mountain in the Swiss ALPS, Climbing Mount Fuji, Mount Kilimanjaro, Machu Pichu Mountains, Mount Agung Bali, Mount Bromo of Jawa, and I am viewing the Mount Everest at its Base Camp 1.

- I wake up in the morning having to go for exercise in my yellow kayak. I am Cycling in the evening with my yellow Protonbike. Everyday!

- I am living in a house of my own internal design and using sunlight as its main power supply, at the seaside facing the sunset, where in front there are saddles for my bikes and kayaks.

- I am driving my yellow Lotus Elize for a ride, and a BMW X3 to go anywhere with my family.

- I am shopping happily on Mondays and Wednesdays at 11a.m, at the Pavillion and Starhill whenever in KL. I am shopping at the Harrods (London Ok, not KLCC)too!

There’s a place I go
When I’m alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I’m fallin
That’s where I’m goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won’t let this go
Dream catch me,
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won’t come back at all

Life

2010-01-15T22:25:00.000-08:00

The paradox of our time in the history is that:

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers,

We have wider freeways by narrow viewpoints,

We spent more but have less, we but more but enjoy less,

We have bigger houses but smaller families,

We have more conveniences but less time

We have more degrees but less common sense,

More knowledge but less jugdment, more experts yet more problems..more medicine but less wellness

We drink too much, smoke too much, we spent recklessly, we laugh to little, we drive too fast, we get too angry, we stay up too late, we get up too tired.

We read too little, we watched too much tv, and yet we pray so seldom.

We multiplied our possesions, butt reduce our values,

We talked too much, we love too seldom, and we hate too often.

We learn how to make up a living, but not a life, we have added years to life, but not life too years

We've headed to the moon and back, but have trouble to go across the street to meat a new neighbour.

We have conquered outer space, but not inner space,

We have done larger things, but not better things,

We have cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul,

We write more but we learn less,

We plan more but accomplish less,

We learn to rush but not to wait,

We build the computer, and the whole more information, but communicate less and less.

Remember,

Spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever

Remember, to say kind words to someone who looks up to you to say hi, because that lil person will grow up and leave your site

Remember to have a warm hug to the people next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart...and it doesnt cost a cent

Remember,

To say I Love You, to your partner and to your loved ones, but most of all to mean it, a kiss and an embrace where all heard from deep inside you.

Remember to hold hands, and cherish the moment, as for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak,and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind

Life is not measured by the numbers of breaths we take...but by the moments that take our breaths away!

George Carlin.. (From John Harren.. Climb Your Mountain Terus!)

Bukan Superstar

2009-08-03T19:57:00.000-07:00

Andai aku Pasha Ungu
semua wanita kan memburuku
Bila aku Ariel Peterpan
kau yakin ngefans karena urang keren

Sexy badannya.. Mulan Jameela
cantiknya dia seperti aku
Giring Nidji sahabat aku
dekat denganku.. dialah aku..

Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Andai ku Letto wis pasti aku wong jowo
Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kata orang ku mirip Glenn Fredly
suara merdu, wanita jatuh hati
Namun semua itu hanya mimpi bagimu woohoo~

Jadi… semua itu hanya mimpi?
Ya iya laah… masya ya iya dong
duren aja dibelah bukan dibedong

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kamu bukan super, kamu bukan setar
Kalo digabungin kamu bukan supersetarr..
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai
Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

013-8181785 to contact me!

2009-07-08T18:13:00.000-07:00

Dear friends

I've lost my handphone last nite.

For the time being, i am reachable at this number.

013-8181785

Tq.

Expenses Card

2009-07-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

I remember playing smart money that nite, i think its just like a practice for a mega smart money game. Everyone seems to play it with full semangat!

In the end of the game most of us just wish that it could be true! With all having multiple passive income in hand, people could really choose to work for passion or just relax at home. Walking out of the room made me felt that i need to pump more effort in getting more passive income and make money work for me.

Why?
- To get all my wish list DONE!
- I've just realized that I am a bit careful-but-love to shop person. I really love shopping after the 15th of each month. That is much expenses card taken. And needs lots of money.

A bit of recheck on my expenses card this month
- Lumix LZ8
- Workshirt, khakis, socks and shoes
- Crocs (about half an hour ago)

Money man. I need to relook on my balance sheet.

Affirmation :
I am good at financing myself, managing my financial situation and creating passive income.

Weekends To Go:
- Bukit Tinggi, Boy Kembara Reception, Kuching, BBS, Kolejian@KL, AYTR Reunion, Smart Money Games, WLS Mats Holmberg.

ZEE AVI - Kantoi

2009-06-17T20:51:00.000-07:00

Its Zee Avi... Nice song...

Young Malaysian (sarawakian juak) in the International stage! ;)

On and On the Days Go On!

2009-06-01T03:45:00.000-07:00

On and On the Days Go On
On and On what i've made wrong?

Nah.. i dont want to finish the song coz its quite negative though.

The past weeks i've been all around. Been to KCH for 21 and half hours, been to JB twice, found the "hardest to find batery in the world" for my camera with a weird batery. Met a few people while reading at the bookstore, I manage to share a few thoughts with people about incomes and being financially stable. Many refused to dream much and do nothing on it, letting life be as what it is. Some people do dream big, but then they refuse to do anything, some quite while trying. Thats why i think the stats were really true, out of 100 people, only 5 will be rich, only 1 will be wealthy.

Anyway, life is about perspective, we can see what we allow ourselves to see. We can be (by god's will) what we want to be, convenient or not to achieve it, if its a burn, we will commit.

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Last nite I attended the Smart Money game, facilitated by Stephen Chin, a successfull business owner and as well a writer for the economic segmen. It was really interesting that he always emphasis on diversifying sources and being calculative in risk taking. In that very realistic game last nite, I've learnt much on the needs of using OPM (other people's money : bank, friends, cc), calculating risks in investments, morgage and loan payments, and also, passion and persistence to be financially free.

A nurse (my occupation card), who is financially intelligent can compete with architects, engineers, lawyers to bid for anything in creating passive income, by just playing it smart. The whole table last nite just wished that we all pass more on "choose a deal" or "real estate"!. We just couldn't land on the spot! ;).

Financial Dicipline
- 10% of salary goes to Saving
- 10% goes to charity (REMEMBER= Parents are not CHARITY!, Helping them is an Obligation)
- 10% goes to investments

Payoff the MOST Expensive Debt, not the Biggest Debt 1st.

If you don't have money, MAKE MONEY. If you have money, make sure it makes you more money! (basically passive income).

An online news clip on Stephen Chin's conducted smart money game.
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2005/8/3/lifeliving/11568253&sec=

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Read a bit of this book last weekend at Kino, The Phrases were ;
- I'm Wrong
- I'm Sorry
- You Can Do It
- I believe in you
- I am proud of you
- Thank You
- I need you
- I Trust You
- I Respect you
- I Love you

Why those phrases? Read the book lah.. i'm not the writer though :P

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The Plans this months.

There will be much travelling towards the end of the month, There's OGA exhibition in KLCC, Miri, Kuching (maybe), and a few spots around the country. Yeah. Will certainly be back home in KCH for Kuching BBS with Simon Thompson.

Will be climbing Bukit Tabuh Klang Gates Dam with Mastek Oil Tools! hahaha. Looking forward for it. Owh yeah, Padot's n Oja's (of Kembara) Wedding This Weekend! Ofcourse la Plan Busuk Kembara PD akan datang kembali before going to the kenduri at Tampin n Jelebu.

Nang tunggang tebalit la plan ya. hahahah.

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Weekend Leadership Seminar - May 15th-17th

2009-06-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

Its been very long since I’ve written in the blog. I’ve wanted to write much things but then again, I realized by just writing it won’t change much of my career, my business, my attitude, and much more things if I don’t take any actions.

WLS

During last Weekend Leadership Seminar, I’ve learnt a lot about importance of edifying peers and above, as well as family matters that will make the desire to be better in life burn even more. Rajan expressed much on how distraction can change paths of our lives if we don’t believe in our dreams, if we don’t believe in what we are doing. His pilot-to-be story did relate much to me.

I’ve been in that situation a few times. I’ve wanted so much to be a Pilot, but then the “afraid of height” thing scares me up to almost not even trying. I’ve wanted so much to study overseas to Japan, but then when the opportunity arrives I let it go just because I think my family didn’t have enough money. How I realized that I am so wrong that Go’ment scholarships were big enough, my friends could even buy cars and travel to Europe. I’ve dreamt to Double Grad 2008, which is to graduate my study (that I did), and finished the G7 mountains. I planned it all, but then again, I just let the opportunity go.

Past are just past, so don’t look back, and just continue ahead! Thank god I didn’t let go the opportunity to be in the network !

I remembered the 4 D’s (not digits though). Desire-Determination-Dedication-Decision. And furthermore, the 5th D is what we have been thought to be the mother of all, The Dream. How to explode more and be successful in life? It’s the few keywords they taught during the seminar ;

- To Sink or To Swim?
- Its not the words you say, but the Desire you Play!
- Just Knowing is nothing. Doing is everything.
- If you r not LC, Be LC. If you are, Help others to be LC.
- Build Depth, coz depth is everything.
- You will do what it takes to the finishing line!, not what’s convenient
- Recondition your mind to have it and believe it!.

It was a great seminar for me and for all of us. Its not only the talk, but the great atmosphere that made us felt so positively driven. Long before, maybe we did thought of why we need the biz anyway? Why? Functions, cd’s and seminars did really taught us, that we don’t need to wait till the WHY to slap our face and urge us to start, we just need to start earlier and make it ready when we need it the most. Like Peter Cox’s theme song said, Dream catch me when I fall.

Now, its time to change. Next seminar will be in August, and I just can’t wait for it as the speaker is so special! Its Mat’s Holmberg from Sweden!

Here's a short video of Mat's

Nice Beats

2009-05-19T04:05:00.000-07:00

This neyo song has a nice beat!!! though i dont really know what the lyrics meant, but the beats are good for my ears ;)

Nanana Akon also sounds nice.... i'm not loosing my rockie senses, but varying my sound mix. hahahah

My best beats for now still rockS!!.. heres from the rockensteiners Faizal Tahir

Monday?? Its Full!

2009-05-03T21:42:00.000-07:00

I'm so up to receive good news earlier in the morning. Nothin not good bothered me in the last 3 days of holidays.

Ran to catch the komuter at 8:41. luckily the ktm driver saw a few people running down the stairs just to catch him. Thanks Bro!

9:11 : SMS : Family matters

9:13 : Yahoo Msg : Another Family Matters

9:20 : SMS : Unfinished Family Matters

9:30 : friendly matters

9:40 : Biz matters

9:50 : Bank matters

Its not even 10:00 am.

Its much about my family. Hopefully they know how much i do care and i do love them.

I'm doing everything to get us a better future.

"Don't think about the sweats & pain, coz it'll earn u nothin. Think about the rewards, u'll drive everythin and achieve it"

Think Big!

The Business Building Seminar

2009-04-26T21:54:00.001-07:00

The Business Building Seminar, 26-Apr-09, PGRM CHERAS.

It was a great talk from the speakers. Invitational speaker Mr Bani/Quim, and a local speaker Mr Mustak. Mr Bani is an engineering consultant by profession and an independant business owner from Singapore. Each BBS has its own specialty. Bani speaks much of the experiences in his business, as well as sharing his experience talking with the author of the book Business School & Rich Dad Poor Dad, Mr Robert Kiyosaki.

Bani asked Kiyosaki how to make himself a millionaire? Kiyosaki answered him simply,
"1st, you find out WHY?, coz without why, you'd never be a millionaire"

The Last Lecture

I think Bani likes audio visual presentation style as the BBS was filled with inspirational video clips from various sources. One of the is the most touching of all. It was a clip from Dr Randy Pausch, a PHD doctor who was giving his last lecture not only for the viewers of Oprah, but specifically for his 3 child. It was a speech on why we dream, how to achieve a dream, and how the dream will come true. Why last lecture? Watch the clip closely and think deep.

Personal Branding

Mr Mustak talks much about sales effectiveness esp on personal branding. Sales Effectiveness depends on 3 parts which are the personal branding, skills and attitude. It is most of the time, not about the value, but the Brand.

He teaches that in business, personal branding makes the 1st impression. Personal branding also depends on Who Knows You?, What Value You Have? and What Do They Know About You?

Protect Your Dream

Its Mr Bani's second slot and he put on the clip as an introduction. This clip also makes impact much. You just need to protect your dream in order to make it come true.

Make The Dream as Goals. And in any goals, it needs to be set-wise and it needs to be smart. Goal setting is important. Why?
- It provides direction
- Allow us to push ourselves to the time limit
- It separates important things from distraction
- Builds up confidence, as more confidence brings more posture.

5 W's Learnt
- Why Do it?
- What you need to do?
- Who is involved?
- Where are you heading to?
- When it is completed?

3 Important C's
- Commit to the dream.
- Commence the effort.
- Complete the goal.

Begin with The End in the mind. Think of the rewards and push the time to make it the soonest.

If you live your live the live the right way, if you live a proper live, The Dream will come to You.

" Dr Randy Pausch"

The Financial Intelligence Workshop

2009-04-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

If you have read Robert Kiyosaki's books, you might have ran through parts that recommend you to play "The Rat Race" / "Cashflow 101".

In Malaysia, it is commonly known as the Smart Money Board Game, which is a part of the Financial Intelligence Workshop, non-profit event organized to educate people on managing their finance and passive income.

There are 6 players in each game, and conducted by a Coach (a.k.a The Banker) at each board. During the workshop, the invited speaker will show and guide the game momentum, as well as give talks on how to manage our money intelligently. I've played the game quite a number of times at KL, and I am so lucky to have two games conducted by a successful independent business owner, Mr Simon Thompson

Simon Thompson

Simon Thompson is an successful independent business owner who has been creating a large number of passive income through the idea from Robert Kiyosaki's books. He is a great speaker and coach of the Smart Money Game and his sessions in the workshop is full with great advices and teaching. He love to ask questions that will make us ponder and think about the importance of having passive income.

His recommended some books to read such as the Business School & Rich Dad Poor Dad (Robert Kiyosaki), Copycat Marketing, Parable of Pipelines as well as Cd's such as Time to Change (by Jim Dornan).

"What & where would you like to be in the next 5 years?"

What Event?
- Smart Money

When ?
- Will be updated (Next would be on the 4th of May 2009)

Why Smart Money?
- Have more information on managing funds and the importance of making more passive income.

Why in Groups ?
- There's a coach to lead you to play and help to understand the game better, rather than play it blindly.

Where to play?
- For those who are in KL, it will be held at Kelab Golf Perkhidmatan Awam, Seksyen 16, PJ.

Who to contact?
- Me!! (013-7598885) ;)

What Other Events Available?
- Financial Intelligence Talk
- Business Building Seminar (April 26)
- Weekend Leadership Seminar (15-17 May)

Recommended Links

http://www.cashflow101game.com/

Updating- F1 Day!

2009-04-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

F1 Day..

Got very excited in the mornin.. but then.. turns out not really well.. but Its OK!!!! Experience tell!!

Tangga la upa tiket lepas lebor... hancus

Hill stand View... The best place to see cars overtake each other.. n even crash! hahaha

Team KUITTHO - Payer, Ijal, Mr Amatt, Izmir, Kimi, Evone, Romadan

Cangkir yg dijual di cofee bean!

entah apa-apa la ya...atleast... I've moved into my new house. Kinda feel good since I finally have my own room, my own set of everythin. Of course belanja banyak ckit, tp its ok. hehehe.. Yeah!!

In 3 Months, the room should be filled with IKEA's concept. ;)

Trips and More Trips

2009-04-02T17:50:00.000-07:00

My trips had been back to back

March
Fri 20- Kch
Tue 24 - Miri
Thurs 26 - Labuan
Fri 27 - KL
Tue 31 - JB
Thurs 2nd April - KL

Mak n abah really wants me to work at Kuching...hopefully someday I will.

Should've been to Lumut today but i'm too damn tired n my cash are flowing out fast. Bok jak nak pindah umah, meli brg2 dikit2 p then have to save a bit.

Alhamdulillah i'm back in kl n is there for the weekends. Whuts up with this weekend?? F1! yeah..

Lots of friends are coming from near n far, lamak nya sik jumpa urg rami2!

I think some re-engineering are needed to my blog. Many things I want to update it but I dont want it to be mixed and mashed up.

Anyway.. I misz her so much... wuhuu... ju lah nangga F1 !!

Midweek

2009-03-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

Its been days i'm waiting for the loan to be approved. Last nite was so kepenatan i just dont know why.Wuhu....

Yet I've got some good news!

I'll be back in Kch in the coming weeks. Then to Miri, Then to Labuan... Biz trip actually. hahaha.. atleats balit what!..

E71 is rather COOL!!! ;)

Wehey....By next week everything dah stable

2009-03-10T04:07:00.000-07:00

I'm quite relieved as my trip to singapore is cancelled. Its quite tiring though. And since there's some issues running around about the claims, I'd say I want to slow down travelling.

But then again, I travelled too!! hahaha.. Went to Tangkak, Muar, Melaka then Pengilan with Iq. enjoyed the weekend sama2 though bila balit malam ng kepak la nyawa. hahah... hopefully my financial situation will improve next month. byk belanja yg mendadak nait bulan tok. kdg xtauk pon belanja ya ke sney. hahaha...

Spec yg berbelang2... cmney la ada pesen kedak ya owh..

During the pengilan, since i'm locked out xpat ngambik baju, makey ajak la baju hard rock cafe g pengilan... hahaha

Sempat juak g IKEA.. kedong da sale. p xmeli papa pon. hahaha

Kickin' Shrimp @ Tony Roma's.

A Weekend To Remember

2009-02-19T02:44:00.000-08:00

My weekend starts on that day. Made sum surprises to be back home. Hahaha.. mom was shocked, abah tetak jak...at least I've made them happy. ;)

Met Iq later that nite to surprise her. ;) Went out for a while than back.

Played futsal the next day.

Celebrating birthday with my parents. Makan2 at chillipeppers. Later at nite had dinner with Iq.

Saturday n Sunday just jalan2 n futsal again. Very satisfied with my new puma gloves. Yeah!

That weekend change lots of things.

Changed relationships, changed friendships. Just like what Obama's campaign. Change. Make actions. Move On.

I dont want to prove anyone wrong anymore. I'm just doing things that I think it's rite.

Aku Ingin Pulang 2

2009-02-08T22:51:00.000-08:00

Next week kot....

Kembali Nanti

2009-02-07T07:54:00.000-08:00

I've been searching for this video clip for ages.. yeah!! best!! :P

Kembali Nanti - Innuendo

Bintang bintang di kayangan
Lembut sang bayu
Tanpa bulan di awangan yang tinggi
Tanpa bayangmu
Andainya tiada ketukan kayu

Jika mimpi dihapuskan
Hancurlah lagu
Walau kita dipisah laut biru
Walau kau jauh
Lihatlah angkasa
Kan terubat rasa rindu...

*Chorus
Seindah malam ini
Lazimnya tiada tandingan
Sehingga kupandang wajahmu
Hilanglah perasaan hiba di hati ini
Terpadam rindu bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali nanti

Jangan duduk sendirian
Jangan kau sayu
Kalau pungguk bersahutan
Kalau kau tahu kurindukan suara
Segeralah kepadaku

*Chorus

Sejenak malam itu
Kau buat ku bahagia
Semenjak malam itu
Hilanglah kisah kisah duka
Bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali

* Chorus x2

Seindah malam ini
Ku akan menunggu mu
Bila engkau kembali nanti

Kehadiran dirimu suatu hari nanti
Bila kau kembali nanti...

2 pages of passport

2009-02-06T01:39:00.000-08:00

Kepenatan

Travelling memenatkan. Nasib la client aku ya jenis yang sik fussy. So cm ngekot pa jak ku padah. Sangat phleggy. hahahah.

Perjalanan Marek. Scan Passport - 2 kali, Chop passport n arrival card, 6 kali. Mun gtok tiap minggu 2 bulan dah penuh passport ku..wuhuu

SUNWAY - KL SENTRAL( 4/2/09) - LCCT - CHANGI - PAYA LEBAR - TANAH MERAH - BATAM - TANAH MERAH - KRANJI - JB (5/2/09)-KL SENTRAL - SUNWAY (6/2/09)

Mingu tok ajak ku dah abis 2 page passport. Wuhu..... Eran imigresen singapore kotan cop passport 5 kali sehari, ya sampey nanyak marek, Mlm ni tak masuk balik singapore ke?? hahaha.. cis.. Its kinda joke p time ya ng dah kepak. hermm.. Kepak tapi enjoy...

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I wanna go home. home sweet home.

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Kembara Team 2009

Jai-Butet-Amar-Wan-Zam-Kimi
Napi-Amat-Farah-Saleh-PokNik-Umar-Boy-Bini Boy-Atie-Hanis-Mas-Mie-Lily-Jaja-Nadia
Palie-Sudirman-Payer-Harun-Daus-Qem

Kembara Consultants

Ir Saleh-Ir Mr Amatt-Ir Hakimi-Ir Zamri-Ir Faiz

Merokok Membahayakan Kesihatan. Shisha Tidak membahayakan :P

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Welcome Sales World!!

2009-02-03T21:38:00.000-08:00

I started traveling on Saturday to a wedding at Melaka. LEpak2 till 6 in the mornin Sunday before I went completely flat half day. Hahaha.. Met Zai and Kerel at Batu Pahat..wow.. batu pahat has lots of improvement since I left it. Now it already has 3 big malls (that could challenge Kuching's Spring and Bolouvard). Damn.. Batu Pahat pon pat ngalah kch ka.. sik patut...

On the next day(mornin) , I took a 7 a.m bus to JB before taking a boat to Batam. Its a holiday in KL man.. yet I have to work!! urrrrrrrrrgghhhh!!!... xpa.. claim. Went To Kabil PT DSAW factory. Wow.. so damn huge and so many pipes!! hahaha... Arrived back at JB around 8 before I met Fadli Pharo. Fadli and his new story. hahaha... Lom. Had Dinner before I went to karaoke around 11 till 3 a.m.

By 3.30 reached the hotel and flat till 10. wuhu.. kepak nya.. Petang (Selasa) went to MMHE Pasir Gudang before driving straight to KL to catch 8 p.m dinner.

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A few best things.. I get free food, I get paid. At the same time its a bit tiring.

I'm off south again to singapore tomorrow. Buhbye!!!!

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Cant wait to get back to Kuching!!!.. Less than 2 weeks kot. hahahah....

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----Lucky-Stay----

Singapore and Batam

2009-01-28T01:32:00.000-08:00

I've just arrived from Bali last nite. This mornin had a briefing of what I will do next in my work scope. Job No.2 is Travelling.

Next week will be filled with traveling . I'll go to Batam on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday has an inspection at Singapore port. Yeah. Bis duit though leh claim ujong bulan. hahaha.. lalek la. bersakit-sakit dahulu. Bersenang senang kemudian.

Bali Bali Bali..... I love Bali

2009-01-27T22:49:00.000-08:00

Day 1 : Ngurah Rai Airport - Jimbaran BBQ - Haris Kuta Hotel

The flite was scheduled on 5p.m, we got on the plane at 7 p.m, and 30 minutes added to find a passanger whose on the wrong plane. Yeah. Arrived at Ngurah Rai Airport at 1030, dinner at 11, arrived at the hotel at 1230 due to traffic jam as there were some ritual at the Kuta Beach on that midnite.

Day 2. Sanur Barong Dance - Kilang Batek - Kilang Silver - Gua Gajah - Kintamani - Lake Batur - Ubud Village

Barong Dance at Sanur

Bali Batek Factory

Silver Factory

Goa Gajah Temple

Kintamani - Batur Lake

Ubud Padi Fields

Day 3. The Beach!! Nusa Dua Beach and Tanah Lot

Mastek Family : Hidayah, Rahman, Kak Ina (Berdiri)
Shinni, Nik, Kak Mas (Dudok)

Day 4. Kuta Beach, Bombing Area, Kampung Bali, Museum of Art - Ngurah Rai Airport

Bomb Place 1

BOMB Memorial

With the Tour Guide : Pak Madey Sunjana

Analyzer Analyzer

2009-01-23T15:49:00.001-08:00

Lom... lumberjacks... lumberjacks are those who cuts trees for wood. (Nak pa dikerepak aku tok) Rasa ajak mok nulis blog tok...tp pa mok ditulis sik tauk...hahaha...lom....ok...analyze kejap.... haaaa bok teringat..

1. I'm really glad and bersyukur that many of my wishes is granted.
Though it has pro and cons, I believe god granted it and given me the positive ones. I've mentioned before that I'd love to work in the Gumusut Kakap Team. My peranan is not so big though, but at least I should be proud that I'm supplying my italian super duplex pipes to them!!... I've always dreamt that I'd travel to Bali (with a girl I suppose) and get sum nice holiday. Though I'll be travelling alone, but then, at least its free. Positively, I'd say I'll bring my girl later.

2. Yesterday did not felt like Friday.
I've had so less work in the mornin but the evening was hectic. Yet then, since I'm single so I'd love to stay in the office late. Sik juak da pa glak mok dipolah di rumah. That was not really my point. When I jalan2 during worktime, there were so much less ompuan wearing bj kurung n kebaya. Ish.. sik best nya... I always love fridays coz many wears kebaya (since I work at KL sentral, so many goes in and out KL sentral)... Women are so beautiful in Kebaya. Esp with the songket like checkered tapeh. Maroon kebaya with that tapeh.. phewwwwwww.....P yalah, marek dikit kali jak. hahahaha...

3. Lucky
Not all will agree that its lucky to be in love with a bestfriend / a very good friend. Its kinda like, when ur not in that relationship anymore, you have the biggest potential to loose ur best friend. That makes you feel bad. I think, I've lost a best friend and sum good friends, yet never I am against it. (It is different to be with a best friend, Listen to Lucky). Anyway, who cares if its a best friend or other's girlfriend if you fall in love. Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jerneh.... Who could've fallen in love into a complete stranger rite??. 3 dates are at least needed if you like someone new!!! :P

4. Rasa.
I think I need to go back to Kuching. Need to tell mom about "that". Coz she's been asking quite frequently. Rasa bersalah jak. Maybe when there's a shipment ujong FEB to Kuching, I'll go and inspect. G Singapore juak. Wuhu.. Plu Credit card... pat claim cepat!!!

5. Ng Bagus..
Kuatan leka nak ber blog. Baju alu belom bersesah. hahahah.. chalow betey. C U at Harris Kuta Cottage (pics were posted before).

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Next plans I have (agik juak nyambong)

PGL theatre @ IB / Rihanna Concert ( February 13 / 16 )
WLS (FEB 20th)
Sun Burst KL ( March )
KK (July)
Bangkok (in plan)
Jakarta (in plan)
Bertunang ( LOMMMMM... duit abis k pegi2 gney nak bertunang..hahaha)

*AlWaYs MaKe ThE BeSt Of YoUr DaY As If ItS YoUr LaSt*

I wish

2009-01-16T00:12:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wish that now I'm in love. To any girl that I may fall in love to in the future. I dedicate these songs for you. :)...

Anyway.. the Live Judika Bukan Rayuan Gombal sounds damn good!!

Aku Mau

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

Bukan Rayuan Gombal

Duhai kekasih pujaan yang selalu di hati
Aku menunggumu
Engkau gadis yang selalu hadir dalam mimpiku
Di setiap tidurku

Dengarkanlah aku cinta
Ingin aku
Selalu menjaga dirimu
Menemani di setiap waktu

Dengarlah sayangku
Tiada yang lain saat ini
Engkaulah yang ada di hati

Duhai kekasihku hanyalah dirimu yang kumau
Tiada yang lain di hati
Selamanya hanya dirimu

Dengarlah puisi yang akan aku berikan
Ungkapan hatiku
Tiada yang lain yang bisa keberikan
Hanyalah cintaku

Aku ingin menemani harimu
Yang mencoba mengisi rasa kesepian di hatimu
Sampai nanti hanya selalu namamu
Selalu namamu yang ada di lubuk hatiku

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It's not jiwang. Its Melancholy Love.

Apo Kono La Naseb Ekau Ni Jang......

2009-01-14T20:58:00.000-08:00

Seaview Resort

Long Stretching Golden Sand Beaches Perfect for Surfing

tapi............... tempat ya banjir... wuhu...............knk nya banjir time tok........sik lamak gk ya.............esok lusak surut la banjir ya....

bok mok book tiket balit....tp family comes 1st!! wuhu...xjd la balit time next month......

Plz inject me with some positive things!!!!!!!!!!! Like very very very ultimately positive that I could make me smile like a lifetime!!!!!!

Ada Apa ??

2009-01-12T21:07:00.000-08:00

Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi karena cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu
Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan

Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya surga
Dalam mata seorang hawa

Ada apa dengan cinta
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya

Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja

Tony Roma's

2009-01-11T08:31:00.000-08:00

Tony Gila Lucy!!

Actually, thats one of the name from Spider's album. Hahahaha..

Here's the real deal. Had a big food day as I got some complimentary coupons.

The Appetizer : Tony Roma's Sampler.. Potato Skin + Buffalo Chicken Wings + Onion Rings

Medium Done Lamb Chop + Side Items Salad and Rice

My Fav : Rib Eye Steak + Side Items Tomato Salad and French Fries
( Ribs Combo that are BBQ Ribs and Kicking Shrimp also taste damn good though!!)

The Dessert : Choc Avelange

Other Recommended Foods : Seafood Pasta (real tomatoes juice and not puree), Chicken Salad, Piena Manggo Juice and Ribs

Tony Roma's KL
Pavillion - Sunway - Cineleasure - Mid Valley
Ribs - Seafood - Steaks

You'll love it!!! ( They should give me more as I promote it in my blog rite!! )

Leh Sik Mun X Merik Title

2009-01-10T09:17:00.000-08:00

If people says that "Curiosity Kills a Cat"... I'd say "Hesitations Kills My Big Time"!!

Lots of big time!!!!......

Dahla. Ya namanya pengajaran. Bila asa maok. Go On dolok. Ok ka sik dudi cerita. Peluang jarang jarang datang 2 kali. Seperti kata pepatah...Sesal dahulu pendapatan, Sesal Kemudian Tiada Berguna. Pepatah kedua pula.... Pendapatan banyak jangan disesalkan..Tiada Pendapatan Hidup Merana.. Hahahahahaa.....

Maka...dengan hari ini...aku makan beger yang sik mampu dimasok skali gus kedalam mulut.

Bistro Burger Tony Roma's!!

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2009-01-09T18:12:00.001-08:00

Susah nya ..................................................................................

Tensen nya .................................................................................

Kulari ke hutan kemudian teriakku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian menyanyiku
Sepi.. sepi.. dan sendiri aku benci
Aku mau bingar.. aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

...Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai...
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh...
Ada malaikat menyulam
Jaring laba laba belang di tembok
keraton putih

Kenapa tak goyangkan saja..
Loncengnya..
Biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan
Belok ke pantai

What if... Next week Lari ke Hutan.... The week after belok ke pantai.... Then aku mecah gelas kaca.. Then main loceng... Then lari ke hutan... then belok ke pantai agik....

If there aint nothing working
There Aint nothing right
If theres a whole in me that I cant fill
No matter how hard I try
Aint nothing sweeter there aint nothing wrong
It's just all that I receive kisss me strong
It keeps me moving on

-Jahred 9n0-

Rojak

2009-01-06T08:25:00.001-08:00

Bab 1

Do you know that there's a Cendol and Rojak place at Pudu that tastes good?? If we take a the rapid U41 bus to kajang, we'll past it on the left side after Chan Siao Lin station

Bab 2

Aku plu bangun awal untuk bergerak awal. Pegi opis urg, pegi miting, balit opis, utak kepak. Duit abis. Nang bagus

Bab 3

Aku mula menjadi emo bila bas lambat, nait monorel tetiba rusak diatas laluan sungey dan smp balit dah kol 1145. kepak nyawa.

After lelah pikir, carik, nanyak, nunggu dan boring. Aku decide aku akan pergi sorang jak la. Sik lelah bkenang nak jaga ati, nak mikir2, nak apa.

I'd really love to have someone special. Mun ada kan senang. Sik lelah mikir la n carik la sapa mok diembak. P mun sik ncarik or ncoba ney nak dapat have someone. Time to change!! Act!!

Akan Tiba

Bab 4

Visualizing Escapade!!!!!!!!! Again!!!!!!! I need!!! I like!!!!!! I want!!!!

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The power of visualizing (and working for it). Get more contracts and I'll get more. Hahaha. We'll see. I hope there's my face in those pics by year half.

Live Life to the Fullest!!!

Kadang-Kadang

2009-01-04T21:15:00.000-08:00

Kadang-kadang

Kita boleh rasa tersepit diantara menjaga hati dan menggapai kemahuan
Kita terpaksa berkorban untuk menjaga keamanan dan kedamaian
Kita mesti bertolak ansur dengan keadaan sekeliling dan tingkah laku org lain
Kita perlu sentiasa berfikiran positif walaupun kejadian itu langsung tidak positif
Kita perlu tegakkan pendirian dan mengambil risiko untuk mencapai keiinginan
Kita perlu menjadi diri sendiri dan tidak menjadi lalang ditiup angin
Kita terpaksa menyakitkan hati org lain... agar kita sendiri tidak tersiksa
Kita tidak perlu fikir apa orang akan kata jika keadaan itu memaksa kita merana
Kita perlu menjadi jahat untuk menjadikan keadaan lebih baik
Kita perlu luahkan apa yg terbuku di hati
Kita perlu bertindak sendirian
Kita perlu ingat akan kepentingan diri..sebelum memikirkan tentang org lain.

Most men have someone they adore for the whole life. Like The Spirit adoring Sand Saref, but then, their love is always for the ones they have (even though they can fall in love with every single beautiful women they met). Like Denny Colt and Dr Ellen Dolan.

That's The Spirit.

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List of next breakaways that I would like to have :
-17th Jan @ Kluang Station
-25th Jan @ the B.E.A.C.H (K.....)
-1 Feb @ Cameron
-14 Feb @........... (sik tauk sney mok tuju..nait ketapi lah kali...)
- 28 Feb @ Miri

I just wish that..... I have someone to be with me at the beach. Its free though. But none seems interested. Maybe I'll find someone there. Hahaha.....

Gunung Angsi

2009-01-04T17:37:00.000-08:00

Yeah...it feels like I'm falling in love again..with Mother Nature.

hahahaha... Its been 9 months since I last climbed a mountain. Yeszzza. I was there, and I'm back.

Lineup : Hafiz, Hafizul, Zaki (IJM Group of Engineers), Frank ( KKM Negeri Sembilan), Payer, Hanapi n Mr Amatt ( Ex Kembara UTHM)

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Anyway...udah abis shopping bulan tok tek... half of the shopping list done, but still i cant afford to get my new digicam n levi's coduroy. Due to needs in the end of the month. Yeah!!!!

Nakpa Hal....

2009-01-02T02:28:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2009!!!

Bok jak 2 hari 2009. Belom ilang angol tdo aher mlm new year. Alu ritok kenak mcm2.... tensen nyawa....

Maok escapade!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mun di ekot rasa ati...mlm tok Sesah baju, kemas brg, pg esok aku mok chow!!!!!

Tak tahan tak tahan nyawa ku tak tertahan!!!!!!

Yeah!!!

sabar...jimat cermat untuk ujong bulan..... ;)

Jalan-jalan Berkamera Digital

2008-12-29T07:51:00.001-08:00

Suria KLCC at dusk...amazing

The Xmas tree at SuriaKLCC was rather a cone. Same goes to Sunways but Sunway had no green at all!!!!

KL's Xmas Deco Winner.... Midvalley KL!!!

Note. : Pictures are taken with an UnLCD Screened Sony DSC....Luckily it got Carl Zeiss'es Lens

If

2008-12-27T08:54:00.000-08:00

Cheeszzzeeee...Woke up early after such a sweet nightmare (again)....I guess that its meaning really came true...last year's dream did came true though I did try everythin to save it.....this year's too... That same flashy light before I'm wakened up by reflect.

The past is somehow relevant. Depends for which road taken. My road took me here. And now I'm taking a new path to make through. I'll take take the rough and unpaved before turning it into a highway.. ;).

Alhamdulillah. I'm still alive. And thank Allah the AlMighty for giving me the strength.... But if.....

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If I Die Tonite (Lyrics are bitten from the original Too Phat Songs)

If I die tonight What would I do
On my last day I know I'd wake early
In the morn' for crack of dawn's last pray
Then prolly go for breakfast like I used to do
Satok’s Laksa And Rojak Kucei would do
Wishin it’d be with my boo

And friends from way back
Neighborhood homies extended famly
They only know me as F1 Mat
With that Red Cap
Drivin' that white 1536 to school
Soccer's Zul with Nesta’s class
I’ll tackle the ball fools

Then I'd come back to the crib Tidy up a bit
Y'all know my room's messy though classy
Start arrange my ish…Line up my jerseys one by one
Start with Gunners And end with them both Milans
Put a picture on the map of which mount
With the name of each done
I think I know my hobbies
And who I’m with which one

Get on the phone And holla' at everybody
It's nearly eve gots to have tea
With the family
Then spend the last day I don't know
Try do a million other things
Hoping somehow time will slow

I guess what I'm trying to say is
Take everyday Like it was your last
Work towards your dreams Before you pass
And have a blast While you at it
'Cause we don't know When we go go
So make the best of it
Just keep it real to yourself
And to all people
If y'all lost somebody before
Remember there'll be a sequel

If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories

Well if I die tonight
I wonder what it’ll be tomorrow
Nobody cries I know there’ll be no sorrow
'Cause I ain't been
The best of men
The best of friends
The best of mom and daddy's last son
The best of anything
I aint ever been number one

If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven by all the people
I been slackin' with when I was livin'?
Those who I hurt their hearts
Took advantage of and even lied to
Hug you one last time for forgiveness
Yeah I would like to

If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident Then suddenly...
Pause?

If I die tonight
I wonder who would get To keep my caps and shoes
Jerseys, even my little dim-sum blue tiger too
Get my cell phone Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Matt
He passed away last night And pray he rest in peace

If I die tonight
Would you think of my room when you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning But then I never knew

If I die tonight
What would happen to my nice and nephews
How long would it take
For them to remember they had an Usu?... damn...
At Pak Amit’s
Would they still order the same kolok mee I love to?
Things I wish I knew...

If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories

A cute lil' thing to many eyes
To me you were simply a beautiful thing
I tell no lies
We went from mere invisible friends
To pals real tight
Rendezvous up on the net
To chitty chat all night
I used to pick you up
Until you got your own ride
A slammin' 4 door junkie crip
A green two dub seven lookin' all slick
Remember when I asked why this
You said because it's real nice
But its blue.. The bet none got prized

That one Dream
I had in 05' November
Made me happy but upset...Dad's words I’ll always remember
Son..U’ll always achieve
Those were’nt much for you
Yet most U’ll give it away
Might be the price you’ll pay
Esp to those you love and care
I mustn’t take life for granted
Think deep through, and act quick
Death you never plan it

I’m missin the days with my fellas for real
Though time squeeze make way pass
A true friendship will never cease...
Love...

DEWA - VI Cintailah Cinta

2008-12-21T21:47:00.000-08:00

This album was released in 1998 and it gets to me in 1999. The songs are really2 great. And as it goes with the title Cintailah Cinta, its mainly about LOVE.

In addition, its the 1st Dewa album which features Once as its lead singer (previously Ari Lasso).

Ecouter les chansons avec votre coeur, Et vous comprendrez

Here are some of the featured songs.

Angin

Kosong

Bukan Rahasia

Arjuna

Air Mata

Mistikus Cinta

Pupus

The JPP gath

2008-12-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

Woke up quite late (again)..its like 1030..hahaha..well..sunday ba...rushed to the showers and get ready to go out. Its almost 11:10 when i got onto the bus and straightly go to KLsentral...

Met DK, Lan, Erin and Farah there b4 all of us went to Times. Quite blurrred where to haf lunch, at 1st wanted kopitiam, then changed to hartz...and lastly all agreed to go to Chicken Rice shop. Cerita-cerita ckit b4 Erin has to go.

Went to BB, n continue lepak2 at old town. then went to lot 10 and haf sum drinks (again)..smp la abis cerita. alu balit...

I wasnt really feeling quite complete coz i wanted to watch movie...so I went straightly to sunway, que 4 the tix and watched Transporter 3. Excellent movie...heavily action packed(kurang ckit dr die hard 4.0!. hahaha....

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Realized that I watched movies alone. Again.

Its like sum dewa song.

"Dalam keramaian aku masih terasa sepi...sendiri memikirkan kamu"

Tdo jak la lok. Nite. :)

Mun

2008-12-17T01:07:00.000-08:00

Mun Bulan Star Bintang...

Harap dapat bonus...saka jak bok sebulan anak jagong aku kerja. Mun dapat half month bonus.....

Jangan di ulu...Biar di Mulu (tabung untuk masa depan ya.....tahun depan la aku start ngisik). hahahahahah

Yeah..here I come!! Amin....

5 Sains 1

2008-12-16T07:44:00.000-08:00

Ron Dylan, Mr Amatt Abdul Rahman Mohammad, Syed Muhd Zabeed Syed Zakaria, Abang Mohd Aizuddinn Abang Mokhtar, Muhd Fadli Pharo, Nabil Fikri Abdul Rahum, Adruz Tajuddin, Faizulyazan Sharkawi, Abdul Majeed Zulkipli, Wan Abd Aziz Wan Abd Wahab, Mirsherrif Chuchu, Alexander Andrew Kana

Camille Alin, Stacy, Ivory Jane, Alifah Hasinah Hassan, Effa Eroza Ismawi, Hayatul Akma Bolhan, Sumolly David, Regina Peck, Jennider Fiona Wilfred

Farah Diba Nasruddin, Nurdiyanah Sebli, Siti Nazfarahdila Anuar, Cikgu Rozitah, Siti Hazar Kasim , Marlynna Sarkawi, Sabrina Hirman

Not in the pic : Belinda Sinni, Elizabeth Fay, Dalglish Singh, Sharifah Zahrah, Sharifah Farah Diyana, Siti Zahrah

Though gamba tok dah lamak di upload oleh Ivory, p since dah lamak sik bukak facebook so i'm just abit ketinggalan zaman la. Xduli!!! Aku GumbirA!!!

Some

2008-12-15T19:28:00.000-08:00

Some posts are better kept unposted.

Bak kata cikgu maimunah,

"Kalau kamu nak tulis sebuah cerpen, ia perlukan satu masa "eraman". Selepas diperam, dibaca dan di atur semula, barulah ia menjadi penulisan yang baik. "

Tapi yang peliknya, bila aku tulis, nya padah aku bagus tulis berita n fakta. benda yg paling aku sik suka.

Pa kaitannya dgn blog tok?

Ahernya baruk ku sedar aku ngereco ajak. wahahahahahah.

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Ermmmmm....I think I wanna start a new blog that is only on living & critics. Mayb its true that I'm better in writing facts than stories.

Gunung oh Gunung

2008-12-15T01:54:00.000-08:00

I surf out www.gunungonline.com and it really made me excited...hahahaha

- Gunung Murud - April ( RM 1200) needs 5 days annual leave
- Gunung Mulu - May ( RM 1300) needs 4 days annual leave
- Gunung Kinabalu - June ( RM 1100) needs 4 days annual leave

Maok Pegi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

at least dpt pegi cgek la... nangga la duit bulan tok cmney. wahahahaha.... deposit pun xla besar glak. mesti ngumpol duit!!! yeah!!

mudahan dpt pegi n masih ada kosong. amin.

ESTRELLA - STAY

2008-12-11T00:13:00.000-08:00

Sounds straight from the twilight
Has me up all night I can’t
Fall asleep coz I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow, outside my window
And it’s you!

c/o
All my sorrows flew away,
Hush keep quiet hear me say
I don’t ever want you to go
Please stay

With the moonlight dancing free
And there’s no one but you and me
There’s no reason to go astray
Please stay

Making up a story
It’s the way you’re looking at me
If you think that this is funny
It’s just you

Try and think about it
If your heart is closed don’t lock it
Keep your keys back in your pocket, think this through

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Merci beaucoup !!! ;)

Tgh Jalan

2008-12-10T20:14:00.000-08:00

Last weekend, I went to my friend's wedding at Muar. There I met lots n lots of Civil Engineers whom were actually my collegemates. I really brought me to think.....

- Am I really doing what I want now. Coz practically, a Civil Engr have a set of thinking that the bigger project that u are in, the more experienced U r.

- Fadli's doing an F23 platform, Falique is now a Project Coordinator of a building near jalan ampang i think, oval ka apa.. I'm not saying that being a sales engineer is not good, but somehow sometime and somewhere, I'd really want to have a tag project. Like... Amat is now working on the gumusut kakap platform.

-I really remember 1 Big Line

" If you think its rite and you want it..then its rite for you. "

But then, Great Tags comes with Great Sacrifices. Maybe its coz I've been staying in the office much that I felt...quite not working. I'd really really love to go out and being all out!!

A friend told me that, dont make harsh decision. Just do your job to support yourself 1st. In the next year(s),if there is a rite chance to leap higher, then grab it. I'd really agree with Fit.

I think last month, when I choose the job, I really wanted to have my weekends. Maybe coz I'm still single, and having been far away with less friends around, made me think I dont really feel that having a weekend is great. Its a nikmat actually to have a weekend. I should be thankful.

I'm really looking forward to go to Miri and xplore the Market. Hey...I have a network to expand though!!!!!! I believe that someday, the time will come when I will have my own tag. Lets visualize!!!

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I really want to climb mountains now. No. I really crave to do something and have a break, and start feeling fresh again. Yeah!!!!

Hari Raya Haji

2008-12-09T01:43:00.000-08:00

Lom!!!!

Since matrix, I've been celebrating raya aji at home only once. Which was last year.

Woke up at 715 with toothache and i looked outside the rain was pouring heavily. Lemah nyawa mok g semayang raya cmya. Nunggu juak ujan redak p lom juak... alu la ilek ajak di rumah. Makan leftover wendy's berger that i didn't finish the nite before. Atleast adala juak encerik dagin kata urg tek tek di pagi raya. hahaha

Kak Nie text me frm the office, "Mesti kau baruk bangun alu sik pegi masjid negara ya nak"...ehehe..yessszzzaaa.. that's rite. Call mak n abah then. N nyesah baju. wow. besanya mun rah kch time ya la rindok makan satay, makan ketupat, kari manok, masak itam, tapey. P aku nyesah baju. sedih juak la. P then what to do. merantau. besala ya.

Went to times for window shopping. mcm byk jak brg yg akan masok dalam shopping list with kak mona who's coming to kl this fri. ahahah.. I still have the BIG advantage of being bongsu.. that is to ngepau yg tua. ehehehe.. LOM!!!

Pagi tadik malas nya asa mok keja, p then boring juak mun x keja. Pegila keja tek... jalan ng masih sunyi kontang (penyalahan tatabahasa). Nait bus alu boleh mileh sit, kalah nait air asia tpaksa gk berebut. wahahaha... sik sampey 20 minutes dah sampey sentral. ng dikit la urg. p xpa. keja mesti diteruskan... gk blur mok polah pa balit keja tok... mok nangga quarantine ka... mok nangga tb. ehehehe.. cm besz jak mun nangga wayang owh. hahahaha.. LOM!!!!

Mari menonton!!

9.20 mlm.

Skali nangga... sik nangga wayang pun....wahahahaha...

LOM

Friday

2008-12-04T22:18:00.000-08:00

On the way to friday prayers, this song was playing in my head.

On my way, I was wondering about those wrong things, the sins, sik dgr kata parents, sik patuh glak ngan agama, just many things in that wrong way.

Alhamdulillah - TooPhat, Yassin, Ahli Fiqr

Disaat waktu berhenti…kosong
Dimensi membutakan mata,memekakkan telinga
Lalu diri menjadi hampa
Saat paradigma dunia
Tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka
Sadarku akan hadirmu,
Mematahkan sendi2 yang biasanya tegak berdiri

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Ult li albi bissaraha (I’m opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab’idil karaha (Let’s avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a’ kulli ni’ma (Let’s remain thankful with what we have)
Ba’ ideena anil fattana (Let’s avoid all lies and sins)

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Merenungi luar jendela,mengagumi kebesaran yang Maha Esa
Ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza
Tak memadai hanya kecapi rasa selesa
Maukan harta yang mampu beli 1 semesta

Berpesta ke pagi botol bergelimpangan
Kekasih muda bukan takat berpegang tangan
Harta dan jamuan nafsu tidak berkekalan
Bila menjelang tua bukan itu jadi bekalan

Dan jangan puisi ini disalah tafsir pula
Bukan berkhutbah cuma betuli diri jua
Ingin hidup sempurna aset nilai berjuta,
saling tukar wanita,senyum dan mati tua

Bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna
Jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma
Guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama
Jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama

Ada berisi ada yang kurus,
Ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus
Ada sempuna ada kurang upaya
Ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya

Sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,
Boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata
Ucaplah alhamdulillah bukannya sukar,
Kerna semana kaya atau besar
Tetap Allahuakbar!!!

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Jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah
Yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah
Entah apabila persimpangan tiba,
Hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya

Harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,
Dan cuma mula mencari kau disaat hiba
Ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan
Tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan

Tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan
Teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan
Sentiasa legar diminda,
Dikejar dan dipinta
Dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya

Ku mengerti siapa ku tanpamu disisi
Dan apa guna posesi juga posisi
Sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,
Nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati

Mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan
Menepati pesanan janji juga saranan
Alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,
Moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan ini

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Aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,
Mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
Aku yang melihat alam meliputi
Wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati

Aku hakiki,aku mengerti
Segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
Gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,
Qada’ dan qadar kau berilah ku kekuatan
Agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan
Usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
Aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui

Moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,
Semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
Moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,
Moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
Lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau
Dengan dugaan cabaran sepanjang perjalanan
Ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah Syukur…

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Sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
‘tuk hanturkan* sembah sedalam kalbu
Adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
Untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta
Dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
Alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
Yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
Semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati
Alhamdulillah

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I'm not trying to be religious. I've only realized that I'm already 23. And I should do something to change myself into a better person.

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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Dengan Nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang
Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan seru sekian alam
Yg Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang
Yg Menguasai Hari Pembalasan
Hanya Engkau yg kami sembah, dan hanya Engkau tempat kami minta pertolongan
Tunjukkanlah kami jalan yg lurus
Iaitu Jalan yang ENGKAU telah anugerahkan nikmat ke atas mereka, Bukan jalan mereka yang dimurkai dan Bukan pula jalan mereka yang sesat.

Amin.

Alfatihah. Verse 1-7.

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17 times a day, Lifetime.

Aku Ingin Pulang

2008-12-03T16:46:00.000-08:00

Kdg2 terasa ingin jak balit kch for weekends. Jarang asa cmtok, since I've had 4 years in johor, but then xda pun asa mok balit bila baruk sebulan.

Tp yalah, gney nak molah since gj bulan tok cm belom mengijinkan jak. 24 days to my full pay. Mun ekot asa ya, mok jak meli tiket k balit kch in 2 weekends.

Xpa. In late December I'll make KL feels like Kuching. Got That!!!!!!

Cobalah ada RaPid Kuching owh...

Nombor Bus
BK 093 = Pasar Satok - Jalan Hj Mataim - Hub Bus WaterFront
BK 101 = Pasar Satok - Simpang Tiga Via Saberkas
BK 110 = Pasar Satok - Batu Tiga Via Green Road
BK 113 = Pasar Satok - Lumba Kuda
EK 003 = Hub Bus Water Front - Bako Via Pendin (Sapa cikgu skolah bako plu makey bus ke water front lok, bok g skolah)
EK 002 = Hub Bus Water Front - Santubong Via Stadium
UK 041 = Hub Bus Water Front - Komplek Via Jalan Astana
UK 042 = Hub Bus Water Front - Semariang
UK 055 = Hub Bus Water Front - Pending
UK 063 = Hub Bus Water Front - Matang Jaya
UK 076 = Hub Bus Water Front - Jalan Matang
UK 082 = Hub Bus Water Front - MJC Via Batu Tiga
UK 087 = Hub Bus Water Front - Kota Padawan Via 7th Mile
UK 088 = Hub Bus Water Front - Kota Samarahan

Best Sik Imagine Cmya.. LoM....Maka Rah Opis...Alu Ngerepak..

Pa owh

2008-12-01T02:48:00.000-08:00

Actually mata ngantok aritok. dah la email server down. hahaha... ng esok melobor kerja aku lak....

I'm still in a positive atmosphere. Jusz that ng ngantok. P kdg2 aku itok. Somehow amat jd the pengitok yg mala itok..

Hahahaha...

Last week I had a long dream about the future. And it made me smile when i woke up.

- I dream that I have a good job and my life is comfortable.
- I dream that I'm prepared to get married by 26 with the 1.
- I dream of starting a good video of my life.
- I dream of driving my yellow ford ranger turbo.
- I dream of my family getting bigger n closer than ever.
- I dream about getting the good pay of investments that i want to have by the age of 35.

I really wanted to have time and money to play kayak n climb mountains in my young age and later have a nice house, a big farm, and a small biz of my own.

I always pray that someday I'll find the 1. Coz who the 1 will be, was not in the dream. And I always pray to god to show me the 1 when the rite time comes. Should I know who she is and when it will be?? We'll see.

Coz even dah depan mata pun mun lom smp masa nya, kadang xnampak juak, n kadang2 maybe kita dirik yg belum sedia. Maybe the glimpse of it will be in the next dream. I'll just berusaha for the best in my life n get ready. :)

I just wanna feel happy this way n be positive of the future.

I pray that I'll be a better person in each and everyday.Amin.

She's the 1 by Robbie Williams

***Baruk lom sebulan keja alu nok ngelaka about the 1..belom!!!!!
Thats y we need to dream n visualize!!!

Yeah!!!

2008-12-01T00:04:00.000-08:00

Arsenal is back on track!!! This is the 1st time in over 4 years that Arsenal won in Stamford Bridge. Hahaha.. I dont blame Big phil to get angry with the ref for the 1st goal.. but... 3 minutes later V.Persie proved that it was not only luck...its a WIN!!!

Arsenal's Man of the match. RVP.

The Winning Strike!!

Jalan-Jalan Hari Hujung Minggu

2008-11-29T18:18:00.000-08:00

Met Saleh n Jaja at KLCC and had lunch at westerns food court. Lamak da jak sik makan the rm10 chicken chop which is considered a big portion for a cheap price.hehehe. Lepak with Salleh n cr2 baju till malam..minum kopi n nangga saleh makan rojak before i went to jalan TAR for the pasar malam.. wuuu... best nya.... lagik best mun ada duit.. hahaha.... the only thing i bought is a rm30 ear phone.

Kepaknya time balit umah ya...then tetiba jak kak nie embak balit vege pasta dari tony roma's... adala ncerik ckit since i've bought kebab from the pasar malam...nyam2...sangat western la umah ya...

then comes sunday... i planned to go to bb to meli selipar but on my way, my college friends rang me to meet up at midvalley. i went to midval directly from home by bus.., the best part is..terit jak madah udah sampey...tapi duhal sikda parking...cerik asa...aku dah madah makey jak commuter sik maok juak..ingga mok k keta...skali nangga pegi kl sentral parking then k komuter ke midval. hahaha... Never underestimate the bus.. pa dikerepak ku tok owh...aok.. met payer, razin, fit, sam, bos n ejat. Later ady pon join juak...

It was just like a meeting of engineers who lepak at kedey kopibin at midval. 6 engineers with 6 diff stories,(p mun dikira balit asanya lebih dr 6 urg marek..hahaha) n they were all filled with civil engr works..i'm the 1 n only from the o&g sector. hahaha.. xpa. varieties makes the world a better place.

Mencapai juak tujuan ariya mok meli slepar.. n i bought none other than the Asadi croc looklike selipar. shop a bit at carrefour. giordano had a very gila sale where everything is buy 1 free 1. gila nak. ada jacket kacak but then... gaji lom masok!!!.. geram... at nite lepak at the real Uptown, not the uptown jual baju but the place where they have the postcode of Uptown, Damansara. Boleh la jd tpt lepak, tp makan mcm not very tasty. ehehehe..

Balit umah, n luckily i arrived earlier than kakni since i locked the grill n she dont have the keys. hahahah... mun sik kenak jail rah luar. Had a lil supper, which was tony roma salad. Kak Nie was very happy since she met n jaga Tun Mahathir's table today. She smiled dr masok pintu sampey tdo. hahahaha..

Slept at 2.30++. kepak.

Mari bekerja!!!!

B4 ya.....
I want to
- setel utang
- beli levi's corduroy 512
- beli beg karrimor landak.
- beli bj cgek k jalan2. (maka byk da baju d umah)

KMBGMNGMT

2008-11-27T07:40:00.000-08:00

thanks to the net....

aku online di umah oleh dak tok... hahahahahaha....

BE....
LOM...

BLACKED OUT!

2008-11-27T03:23:00.000-08:00

Hye.. it's me again... hahahaha...of course its me coz its my blog lah!!!!

This is quite a relaxing day for the office staff since it went to a black out just before lunch. It didn't only cut out the electricity, but then the internet connection too!!. Sheshhh.. those finance and admin staffs stayed cool, coz they dont have much work, but then, the sales team were in great kebingungan... Y?? coz there's more than 10 emails that's worth 50k of tender in each of them.huhuhu.... n i couldn't get any music too.. since i dont download much..hahahah

who cares... ya la keja aku molah keja rah kl sentral foodcourt kol 730 malam. urg lain semua makan aku reply mail hal quotation. nang bagus.... hahahaha....

Aku ditegor oleh semua urg rah opis ritok.... dari big boss sampey la sales team,
"You look so ceria today ha Rahman (my office name since there's mat already)."...

I dont know. maybe. I'm feeling so positive today. Its not becoz of the gaji, my gaji is ehehe..HALF only this month since I work only for 11 days...I just woke up and felt happy.I hope I'll always be this way.

Maybe the dream caught me from falling. hahahaha...

Sorry for the emo voice of melancholy post. hahahaha....

Be ... Lom!!

Here is the original singer of sponge bob square pants.. guess who?? its Newton Faulkner

Weekend Leadership Seminar

2008-11-27T03:14:00.000-08:00

It was held for 3 days at PGRM Cheras. That’s just lucky for me coz I don’t work on Saturdays and I am in K.L. Hahahaha…..

At first, I really hesitate whether I really wanna go for it or just take excuses not to go to. I am quite a hard guy to convince but then, I did made a wise choice to go. Y????

Coz from there I learn how to and why should I dream more. The atmosphere was really positive. Its not about the silvers, gold, jewels and crowns that they are giving away. Its about what they did to achieve their dream.

Peter Cox is a great positive dreamer. He dreams and strives to achieve it. He’s quite sarcastic though, he always mentioned about being FREE. But then, it is what he dreams to be. He wants to be free, and now he’s free. I’d agree if some couldn’t accept his way is giving talks, especially those phlegmatic and melancholies, but then, he brought in lotz of dreams to me. The videos. Those videos inspired me the most. He has great videos, and I dream to have great videos of my life!!. To achieve a dream is just like reaching a mountain summit. Peter reached lots of summits in his dreams, and I wanna grab mine too!!

Matt Holmberg. I like him more!. Maybe I’m influenced by his videos too….the bikes, and his respects to Peter Cox. A millionaire who made a hot cup of tea to another millionaire, on stage. hahaha.. Where can U ever find it, its in the WLS.

What I did learn?? WLS did not teach like classes, it teach my by examples. It teaches me that there’s more in life than just what’s going happen tomorrow. It made me realize that there’s much thing that I could achieve in the future if I start to dream and work for it. I need to dream a bigger picture in life.

It doesn’t matter much what other people thinks about you, what you dream and what you do, the thing that matters is that you believe in it.
Its important to believe that what you are doing is rite. If you think its rite, then it is rite for you.
Be patient. Great Things won’t come easy. It needs sacrifices to achieve dreams and success.

Special thanks to Dalia whom invited me there. ;)

My Dream??? I'll say more bout dreams later

NTAHLA - THE VOICE OF MELANCHOLY

2008-11-19T23:27:00.000-08:00

Byk benda yg bermain dalam utak.
Byk benda yg bermain dalam hati.

Knk?

Sebab byk gilak benda yg aku xsure. It smells like there's something fishy around. Benda mcm2 slalu mengganggu aku molah decision.

Sometimes aku ingin life yg sik byk prob. Its not all about money. Money probs concerns a little.2008 is just not my year. Maybe. Maybe not.

Moving to kl, bila dah 3 hari, terasa sunyi. xda gang mok ngakar mlm2, xda member k main futsal, xda urg k ajak kuar, urg msg pun x. SUNYI. Bukan la nyesal pindah kl coz kat kl pun x lamak, just that it really change.

Ayat2 yg best di dengar.

-"I'd really want to pursue my career" or dlm bahasa sarawak "Bagus konsentret ngan kerja kita jak dolok". hehehe... what a very pleasent common way to say sorry, dont wanna haf relation with you (now / anymore). I've heard it twice.

-"Sorry i didnt found my hp yesterday". It could be true if they have 2 hps. Or.. you totally lost your hp n bought a new 1.

-"I cant really trust men"....I'm on the opposite.. I dont trust women much NOW.

Dahla... what's past is irrelevant. It wont bring me any nearer to where i'm heading.

Sometimes revenge are sweet, but proving that i'm rite makes me feel much better.

James Bond Quantum of Solace

2008-11-16T17:09:00.000-08:00

Watched it on Sunday... pa boring glak xtauk pa mok polah di rumah...

TGV Sunway is quite good..if u're going for a movie there, make sure take the middle seats from the screen...it offers the best views compared to the back ones...

quantum of solace, i think one of the best james bond movie in the craig and brosnan era. y? coz its more realistic where bond gets cuts and bloods more compared to the other 21 bond movies..but who'll agree if we say its better then sean connory..each bond has their own status..but i'm giving Craig in the top list. :)

James Bond 22 = Quantum of Solace

She's pretty...love her eyes :-)

The next James Bond... he'd be replacing daniel craig as the shortest of all james bond if he ever gets into the list hahahahha

Work Day 1

2008-11-13T17:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my 1st day working. woke up early at 6, got on the bus on 6.45 and then sumthing terrible happened.

I got into the wrong bus!!! shshshshshsh..... its actually the rite bus but its going the wrong way. I should be heading to central but then its going to Taipan!!!.... arrived at USJ 8 at 715 and i know i'm gonna be late for work. Got into another bus at 720... back at sunway at 8... and then i only arrive at central at 845. what a great starting day..

I'm sweating like hell on my way to the office. Got onto the wrong floor. went up and down to find the office. I'm terpacak in front of the office at 9.00....

Alhamdulillah! Work starts at 930!!!!... hahaha...

Introduced to all staff members, given a laptop and what i did for the afternoon is reformatting and installing the laptop. at around 3, went to KLCC to send some tenders at Carigali Hess...

Balik kerja at 6 and went straight home...kepaknya kerja...had tomyam campur before i went straight to bed.

Somehow it feels that 13 is the lucky number. But in 'that case' ...13 is way too long to wait...hahahaha....:)

rahman@mastek-ot.com.my

Miri Pics

2008-11-10T09:58:00.001-08:00

Picture tells a thousand words... you r free to describe :)

Syafiq the Congek Hero

Syafiq and Syafiqah

Park City Everly Exec. Room

Sunset At Marina Seahorse Point

The Biggest Seahorse in the World

Seaview

Abah, Syafiqah, KaK Nie, Me

Believe me, The old guy in the checkered pants drive a Ferrari for a jog at the grand old lady, Canada Hills, Miri

Abah n Zufar

Busses of Bintulu...20years better than Kuching

Pajero Accident

Miri

2008-11-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was quite a long drive. 900 km. 11 traveling hours.

My sister is ok. My nephew is also getting better.

Spent the day jalan2 at miri town. bfast, grocery shopping, miri old lady, seahorse marina. quite tiring. after all, i'll be working here in a few months.

Tomorrow i'll be visiting my sister in bintulu.

sheeshhhhhh.... I cant get enough sleep. Syafiq is crying from 2 a.m. Kakni and kaklyn brought him raon2 around miri, bought kfc burger but still he didn't stop crying. the crying saga stops at 5, syafiq tertido. And surprisingly his crying woke me up again at 9 a.m...

Knk nya nangis lmk glak? Knk nya stop nangis bila nya depan cermin. I wonder why.

Un Aucun Dimanche

2008-11-02T04:03:00.000-08:00

The choice was hard. I’ve waited months and months for Scomi, Sime Darby and Faber. I’ll be attending none of the interviews. Shshshhh….

Was out lepak and ilek2 with Odi and Zai last nite till 4 in the morning. That’s what bujang people do when there’s nothing to do. But then, I still manage to wake up quite early, around 7:20 am in the morning. Had many plans for today, pengilan, jalan-jalan2, the day before I’ve thought that my day would be very full. Cancelled futsal and other outings.

2:30 p.m - 4.30 p.m
-I’m sitting in front of the pc writing this.
-At this particular time, I really wish that I’m in KL so that I have more place to go, or at least have more money to shop. I wanna get that white shirt, sneakers, and 512 corduroy Levi’s.
-Received quite some bad news...My sis is sick in miri, and 2 of my nephews are also sick in bintulu...
-I miss the climbing days too.
-I really miss to have someone special with me. At least I could share something though. I also miss a good dating time.

I hope that it would not rain as I want to go jogging at Pustaka. I wanna get myself really tired so I could have a nice long sleep tonight. I need to get some good moods in the air.

If my sis dont get any better by tomorrow, we'll all go to miri.

La Quarte

2008-10-30T19:48:00.000-07:00

Moving

I’ll be start working in K.L in the next few weeks…I hope that it will be a good job and in next year I really hope that I will be back at Sarawak, Miri at least.

Before I move from Kuching, I’d love to climb mount serapi, go to hartz, hang out with all my friends as I can see that when I start working, there’ll be much less time to do so. I really hope that someday next week Faber would call me for an interview, it offers good prospects of working in Kuching. Hahahaha…

Choices

As 2008 has captured a lot of dramas, not just me, but also to many of my friends, I really hope that everyone would be happy by New Year’s Eve. For now, I’m glad that some of my friends returned in their relationship. …. Many say that I have changed a bit, maybe yes, or maybe they’ve just started to get to know me better…

I think, the best thing to do in life now is to adapt to what’s going on, always think of a solution, be open, be a good listener and share your problems and thoughts. It will not wash away the probs, but somehow it’ll get you through better.

Being positive is important, as many things won’t come easily. Rezeki takkan datang bergolek. But sometimes, we can’t even see the rezeki even it rolls upfront. Why? Coz Life is not always according to the book. Coz we choose the book that we want, and we choose what we really want to follow. Life is about choices we made.

Working

In work, many had clinched their jobs as soon as they finished degree. I waited n tried for 4 months before any interview came by. Is it becoz of the points or activities?? No, its becoz of the choices and chances that came by but unseen or missed.

I have better chances to get into SESCO, but it slipped away just becoz I didn’t pay attention on that particular day’s job adverts. I also had mistakenly and complacently chose not to submit my CV earlier in June. That made me really regret in August..

Later in KL, I had 2 offers, Tiring Site Engineer or CSR jobs, I chose the CSR job coz I want the extra half day rest every week and I get to work in Sarawak. The consequence, I have smaller income.

Love

In love life, we can’t always predict what will happen next, who will be our next partner or will a relation be long… Hearts are so exposed for changes. Many “alasan”, many possibilities, and many misjudgments could lead the heart into the very wrong path. “You don’t understand”, “Lonely”, “Tired of waiting”, “It’s a phase”, “I don’t wanna hurt you”, “Enough Fights”, “Teman tapi mesra”, “Mutual separation”…its just the choice of words, It is us who decide our action…..

There’ve been many breakups and upsets around, but thinking it as point not to believe in love is just so wrong. Everyone needs their own set of time to pull through. Not everyone can recover fast; some shattered hearts needs more time to join the broken pieces. Some needs more glue, and maybe for some, a bit of paste and time might just do.

Love is just anywhere. It’s our choice to see, to choose who, to change and to set paths to the future, and after all had been done, god will decide. Sometimes, things happen with blessings behind it. We will only feel and really cherish what we have, when it is already gone or over. But then, sometimes it’s already too late, but in many cases, it is the time to start a new chapter in life. It’s not wrong to be sad, but to mourn a lost forever is not the way.

Faith to god is our obligation, Hopes must always be kept in, and Efforts must be done in order to change. And again, It’s our choice to choose, to correct the blunder, to restart new, or make a new chapter. Just like when a virus hit a pc, we can always correct it by finding the source, delete the error and restore the missing files, OR we can easily flush everything away by reformatting the whole disk.

It’s our choice, we choose our life. And when the effort is done, let God decide it. –Rezal Hassan, Take Charge.com.my

For me,

-Even when you already choose, if you don’t say it out, no one will hear you.
-Saying without making efforts, no one will see you.
-Efforts with no faith, no one will trust you.
-And if God don’t trust you, the choice will not be granted.

My choices

2008 made me made thousands of choices. Choices to sell my laptop or to repair it, to date or to climb my final G7 Mountains, to trust or to be suspicious, to change or to be jealous, to sooth and adapt with the problems or to retaliate with the situation, to stay on the relationship or to have a mutual separation, to celebrate my convocation or go directly to Shell interview, to celebrate raya as usual or make the difference, to go to interview for 3 days or 2 weeks, to keep on hoping or to move on…..

I kept my hopes in….and at the same time I am ready to move on…coz working for Shell or Petronas is always my priority, but I cant wait for them forever…I need money and I need a job.. Therefore I chose to work in KL…then in 2 months, I’ll be in Miri…

Here comes another choice to make..

I received a call from Sime Darby in early morning and they want me for an interview in JB on 4th Nov. Fadli’s source said that it’s a big opportunity to work in Qatar.. But then, I already bought the tix for KL on the 9th, so…should I go to JB then head directly to KL?? Or should I miss the interview….

In the evening, received another call from JKR saying that I have an interview on the 12th… Just then, I received a scomi group interview on the 6th...fuh.. alhamdulillah..god gave me a lot of ways... and I pray to god, plz show me the right way and the right choice..

My decision…. Start working on the 13th, and go to the JKR interview….

On “that” matter, up to now, I am still single. But I think there are times that I need to think about myself and ponder deep, what are the next choices to be made.I still care, I still have hearts, I don't palat people, I respect others, I think am still what I am before, but then, I also need love and care.

:-)

As time ticks, now is then was...would could have been is...So..whats your decision??
Make the right choice. Choose life.

Dugaannya - Hujan

2008-10-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

Dugaannya - Hujan

bapanya mahukannya…
jadi seorang askar
bukan cita-citanya…
bukan impiannya

dia terlalu muda…
tuk tinggalkan keluarga
bila tiba masanya…
pilu mula terasa

berkecamuk hati…
hatinya sendiri
persoalannya kini sampai bila mampu ku bertahan…
Mampukahku bertahan…

Nampak ketara kah
dilema diwajahku…
diluarnya tenang
tapi Tuhan saja tahu…

beginikah selalunya cinta…
diakhiri sekarang
setelah dicurahkan semua
cubaku dalami…
sampai termimpi-mimpi
Namun apa yang ku jumpa
semuanya sama

berkecamuk hati…
hatinya sendiri
persoalannya kini sampai bila mampu ku bertahan…
Mampukahku bertahan…

Nampak ketara kah
dilema diwajahku…
diluarnya tenang
tapi Tuhan saja tahu…

ini semua dugaanNya…
semua dugaanNya

Mawar Khayalan

2008-10-29T01:19:00.000-07:00

Laila's Lounge - Mawar Khayalan

Semua yang jadi tanda tanya
Buat hatiku tak keruan
Dia wajah yang berkeliaran
Aku, kudamba kehadirannya

Oh mawar khayalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa

Seluas laut yang terbentang
Dan buihnya terapung di awangan
Derita, derita yang mencengkam
Cuba untuk aku bertahan
Dimana oh wajah yang berkeliaran
Sungguh kudamba kehadirannya

Oh mawar khyalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa
Kecewa tak bermakna
Semua hanyalah tipu daya
Modenisasi hanya…

Semua yang jadi tanda tanya
Buat hatiku tak keruan
Dia oh wajah yang berkeliaran
Aku, kudamba kehadirannya

Oh mawar khayalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa

Kecewa tak bermakna
Semua hanyalah tipu daya

Modenisasi hanya
Untuk haiwan di rimba
Globalisasi cuma
Jadi tuan si hamba
Ooo monarki untuk apa
Badut-badut istana
Lalalala

Oh mawar khayalan

OST - Kami The Movie
"Hidup Ini Memang Palat..Tapi Esok Masih Ada"

Key-El Interviews Views!

2008-10-17T13:23:00.000-07:00

Actually.. the post was wayyyyyyy longer so I think I need to cut it short….arrived at kl at late evening and it was raining heavily, checked in at Prescott KL and took a nap before going for jalan2 to damansara to look out for the office..Had a RM 8 nasi goreng ayam before I went to sleep.

Brunsfield Interview

I had to pikul my heavy 8kg bag to the monorel station…berat ehs…Its not that heavy, its heavy coz I’m wearing baju smart and start to sweat a bit when the Medan Tunku’s escalator broke down…cis.. luckily the monorel is cool enough. Made my way to TTDI later and arrived at Brunsfield around 1230. Met the hr manager and given the IQ and personality test…haha..hantam sajalah!! Met Putet who’s already 1 week working there, waited for Amir but he couldn’t come from his site at subang..jauh juak subang ya… Only after 230 that I was interviewed, and it was only for 15 minutes!..

Are U ready to be a site engineer?? The job is simple, manage the site daily and report to the project coordinator, they’ll make all the reports. BUT..U have to work everyday from 8 to 5, Monday to Saturday, plus hours that maybe needed at the sites at late evening, AND u only have 3 weekends as u must be onsite atleast on 1 Sunday every month.

Wow…susahnya jd site engineer…bila la mok ilek2?? That was playing in my mind along my way to ashahrin’s place.

Ashahrin’s

His laptop’s motherboard was burnt… so the room became an unofficially GUA. Hahaha.. luckily my mp3 was there to get sum urban music into the room. Stayed there for 3 days, went for the KAMI gig at central market, then an open house at Balakong…wah..student memang suka makan free.. ?

"Hidup ini memang palat..tapi esok masih ada"...
It sounds true... sumetimes people who'll palat you is none other than whom you really trust and or those you really care...

The 2nd Interview

Went for bfast with Saren, Dalia (IQ) and Muhaimin (muhaimin jd penonton as he was fasting) at Serdang, b4 we all went to IKEA and Curve…Bought the RM0.89 cangkir just to get 3 hrs free parking and ate RM 3 Pasta and RM 5 meatballs..kenyang!..In the evening, I received a call from my cousin, she told me to go to Mastek Oil Tools for a walk in interview.

The next day, it was really an easy interview as all I need to do is name the pipes and the boss to be discussed about EPL.. The office is really crazy about Liverpool.. and unfortunately I am an Arsenal Supporter….After the interview, met Dalia and went to KLCC, got the Skybridge idea but then it was already late, so just jalan2 then went to Midvalley for coffee before I headed back to Sunway.

A No Wednesday

-Got up really early in the morning to get the KLCC skybridge tickets. YES! Dalia and I Got the tickets but NO, we did not get to bridge as she has to catch her flite back to KCH.

-Waited for Zai quite long, so I decided to go to putrajaya for a jalan2 for a while. YES! I got into the bus but NO, I didn’t get to putrajaya as I had a big stomachache…

-End of the no’s as I got back home and get a real sleep.

Tiket merah itu tidak dibisak (xnait skybridge la retinya)..hahahaha

Meet the Heng Guans

- Went to Stamford College for Zai’s interview then we go jalan2 around KL. Searching for guitar shops as well as cheap foods. Lunch at CM, tea at BB top floors, those places were really cheap in KL. Had a simple dinner before I took the wring bus back to Sunway…..cis….kepak berdiri..

- The next day a tried my luck to go on a 2 ringgit Selangor tour, turned out disastrous as what I only get was 4 hours standing in the bus and went to the very wrong Terminal Bus Kajang. Almost missed the Friday prayers but luckily me and the heng’s (Zai and Muhaimin) could catch up the 1st rakaat.

- Went to the career fair, The Saturday was really long, 3 interviews, 6 hrs waiting, and I really hope that any of the company will call me back for the next level of interviews. Jalan2 at UKM with my cuzzie Topek before I went to KL and met the Hengs..The plan was to go to the KAMI gig at bukit Jalil, but there were too many bags, so I decided just to jalan2 and get back to Bangi.

- Sunday was hectic, tawafed KL, KLCC in the morning, Damansara IKEA and Curve in the afternoon, back to KLCC at precisely 6 p.m, then a walk at Bukit Bintang sambil berujan. That’s why U must go with the Heng Guans…they’re always heng on the go!

K.L.C.C skybridge!!

The messege

Cooked dinner for my sister back at home and had lil chit chats. She was surprised to hear the news. My lucky Sunday ends up with a message that really left me in silence before I went to sleep...

“ 2 weeks was quite long rite… Ktk cnun just for the interviews ka?.. nah..just joking :-) . Nite2....”

Woke up at 11, packed all the things and went straight to Sentral later at 4…Checked in as early as 6 at LCCT before my flite got delayed for about half and hour..

Monday..9.45 p.m – KUCHING!

I wonder what will happen tomorrow...

Raya 2008

2008-10-17T12:21:00.000-07:00

Its quite a raya!!!!....many things have changed!

Activities
-B4 raya.....went out for sungkey diluar with odi,zay,iq,ipah,aten n dekya...they didnt invited ille coz they thought it would be sensitive 4 me...nah...just few hours later i went out wif her to look for kueh lapis...:)

-Raya Eve....very bz as my sis, Kak Lin is celebrating raya in kch...atleast i dont haf to worry about cooking as our family has a malay chef (my brother in law bg abark)...nice masak itam n curry...nyaman oo....that raya nite i slept at 3, after settling every little things in the house...my anak buah didnt give any help...fiqah kept on memmujok me to allow her to play pc games...shafiq is always in a protective mode...only kak lyn could hold him...pa jak la...tedah aku jd uncle xpat embak anak buah...

Raya Day

I iron my bj raya at 2 a.m, all colors but blue since mum told us that her new blue bj kurung that i bought for her belum siap gk...kecian mak...that morning was a rush!!..why? coz everyone in the house is using color themes, abah n mak haf other blues, kak lyn's wore pink...i'm the only 1 with black. half nhour b4 raya prayers, i rushed to iron my blue bj raya just to match everyone...kepak owwhh...

Its been long since we haf the upacara berjarah where each and everyone salam abah n mak n the elders. Alhamdulillah, my wish is grandted to haf atleast one of my sister back for raya, this year i haf 2 instead!.After the berjarah, we all had the raya meal together...the beridang raya started at 11, where the guest started to come over to our house...sik berenti sampey kol 5 petang!!!...i think i served my special "Air Serbat Tok Mat" (my family's recipe) for more than 300 cups...quite tiring as i haf to serve, wash and clean all of them.

At nites, we all haf finally haf the time to visit our neighbours...baruk la tahun tok visit jiran 1st day kowh..mun sik salunya 9th day...:)...

Raya 2nd
-Visit family houses at seberang!..ille's in the evening...shafiqah tangada moleh manjak time jalan2!! we all were blanked by her as she kept on complaining about having stomachaches...but when we got home the cure was only playing ps2 and my pc games...herm..i'm blurred..

Raya 3rd
-3rd day is the day i always spend with my friends..visited many "new" houses as those were seldomly visited before...its all in the kolejian blog..:)

Raya 4th
-woke up early and sent ille to the airport...the i go again for jalan raya with my family...late evening i manage to join my friends for the visits...and started again at muhaimeans..manage to curi some time to go to her house...my disappearence were unnoticed i think. :)..jalan2 till late at nite and finished at morshidi's.

Raya 5th
-such a bad and boring day!!!!...woke up really early and went to serikin with kak lyn..after lunch at s'pore chicken rice, we sent shafiq to his guardian home...i wanted to go out but mum kept urging me to wait for her and abah...in the end, i've waited from 11 am till 5 pm at home, as there were many guest coming...and we only manage to visit 1 house...i got quite frusterated and luckily my sister came up with the bowling game idea..we enjoyed ourseleves and bg abark was the winner of the day!...

Raya 6th
-abah suddently haf to go back to igan. we all manage to haf a big bfast at chillipeppers..in the evening i sent my sister's to the airport and then back home..

Raya 7th
- Its 7 October!!! Mum's bday!..it was mak's 58th bday but there were only 2 of us at home. We went for a bit of jalan raya whole day long till evening. At nite, there were many guests at home...ng rami la since its the last official raya day for kch...ehehe...celebrated small with satay and nasi ayam special...happy 58th bday mom!! i promise i'll buy the present as soon as my 1st pay comes out later :)

thats all about raya....8th day?? no 8th day...just a usual wednesday where i watched eagle eye at riverside. afterall, wednesdays are movie days and are always my best days. :) ... went to spring and bolouvard as it was raining heavily around kch. late evening, went to DekYa's as the plan was to go for ayam panggang dinner. waited for odi till late at nite and in the end i went for just a simple cryspymee dinner wif my dad.

9/10/08 - Went to Kl!

Kolejian Blog.

2008-09-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

Its nothing actually..wanted to start it up but it seems that i'm out of internet connection..hahaha...do visit the blog n help me with sum updates!!

//kolejian85.blogspot.com

For the 85 batch wonley!!

Merdeka Day

2008-09-03T22:52:00.000-07:00

31st August is a very big day for all of us Malaysians. It’s our independence day and everyone should really appreciate it. But from my point of view, this years’s merdeka were really really dull. So few banners, so few lampu-lampu, so few iklan in the TV, and there were so few who put up the national flag. I atleast had both bendera Malaysia and Sarawak in My room for the Merdeka Day.

Had a good merdeka day when I went out with MJ in the evening for movies n jalan2 around kuching. Went to the airport McD, waited for On’s sister to fetch her camera but she didn’t turn up in time, so we went car hunting around Kuching. Later we go for a walk at pustaka until almost dawn, before sending MJ back home. Had lil chats later at nite. :). Maybe, its good.

In the other hand, 31st August is a big memory for Me, Azid, Morshidi and Fadlizan. There should be 1 kenduri kesyukuran at least as we had a very terrible accident that could’ve cost our lives on that day in 2002. My white iswara were spinning and had almost fell into a gaung at matang. Luckily we hit a bit rock and stopped the car. The front lights, signals, bumper were crashed, and the front chasis went a bit senget. In a split second after we all went out from the car, there was the second car which had the same accident and almost hit Morshidi and Azid. We all, were lucky. Alhamdulillah.

Dates that I think, I escaped death

31st August 2002 - Matang Car Crash
9th January 2007 - Swim Cramp around 500 meters off Manukan Island while snorkeling. Saved by the beach kayakers. :). Alhamdulillah.

Gamba tok sikda kaitan dengan apa yang ditulis..hahaha...

Received a call from Fadli. Was quite suprized with the news. Sikda angin sikda apa, tangda "The Chain Reaction Club" now has 3 members. What a year, 2008 is just full of drama. We can only pray 4 the best for Nabil n G-hah. The only remaining longterm couple.

I'd guest during hari raya, there will be another session of this. Where guys talk about their updates in life :)

The Convo Pics!

2008-09-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

The Kluang station!

I did have a lil great time with my friends during convo week. Though quite bz with shell, helping friends, meeting colleagues, I still manage to squeeze some time to be with my closest friends. Went for breakfast at the REAL Kluang Railway Coffee, haf sum pics at the alumni counter, mkn2 at fav places at parit. Quite complete. Even more when I get to see MJ everyday. Went for the alumni hightea together and got menyesal. It was not hightea at all..its like a perhimpunan!! Should’ve gone for Secret Recipe where RM10 has much better foor than the hightea!.

-------------------------The Grads play at stesen keretapi!

-----------------------Bersama Housemates!! Sarol,Erah,Me,Man

Went to fetch mak n abah on that fri nite, quite a long journey, not bcoz of the road, but the uncomfy car. No aircon, poor absorbers, rusak cya cnek.oooo….kepak nyawa. But as long as smp parit, its fine.

Convo Eve.

I had my breakfast again at the Kluang Railway Station..this time with mom and dad. Abah was really satisfied!..The best roti kaya and fresh brew coffee!!.Mom, as always, its ok! Went for jalan2 at jb too!. Quite tiring, but at least I’ve granted mom and dad’s wishes to go jalan2 around johor. The Masjid, Danga Bay, Muzium, Chocholate Building, The Zon, it was a bit in a rush, but its all fine to them. I need to dobi the things and as well get sum haircut actually. By 2 we were already on our way back to Parit.

--------------------------------------Nyam2..Roti!!

It was really MJ’s convo day. Was on my way back from jb (I think I went to JB 6 times in that week) when she texted me to wait outside DTII when she finished the ceremony as her family wont be long there. Manage to catch up though I was quite really late. Went to the dataran for sum pics with her, then to the studio. She couldn’t decide which studio to choose so we went to every studio n took pics with ordinary cam to compare them. Decision : It’s all the same!.The best would’ve been the PTM books background. The green background pun ok..:)

-------------------------------------Dataran Siswazah

Had my dobi done, and got sum new haircut before I only had my lunch at 6. Later I took mom and dad to mom’s favorite visit : Kedai Kain Prima Moda!.

Convo Day!

Woke up at 5.30 just to make sure I’m ready. Had a very simple breakfast, then the only meal I have is at 1.30 which was only cucor udang. The ceremony was quite fast, finished at 12, went for pictures at dataran with my friends before MJ came. Took quite sum pictures, before we all (me, razak, our family, MJ, On n Man) went to the studios. The picture session was long, more than 2 hours. There were only 9 official pics, the rest was all with our cameras. Very fun n puas hati. Sampey kepak da mok senyum.

---------------Lepas semua udah kemas..thanks to jaja n frens..hahaha..

--------------------------------B4 amik studio pics..

Later on, had a long walk with MJ, its mainly becoz I parked the car so far away earlier in the morning, before we took our results and sent the jubah to the PPA. Sent her to the rumah sewa, thanked her for helping me with my family and wished her goodbye, as she’s going back on that nite while I still have to go to Miri. Rushed back to mom n dad, pack all things and went for KL.

-------------------------------The unofficial studio pic

--------------------Best Friends in UTHM - Zaid,Anyau,On,MJ,Me,Man

Convo did change me and maybe her. I think, from there was when we felt the differences. It’s a new thing between me and her after knowing each other for more than 4 years. And as well, Mom and Dad were already blurred. I kept my silence and I will only tell if they ask me about it. I think, it will be on the hari raya.

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Shell

2008-08-28T21:27:00.001-07:00

Received the awaited call.

Dear ahmad, i'm sorry to tell that you did not pass the interview.

I guess.none did between the 6 of us.

Nevermind, at least I knew i'm in the best 17. :)

Shell Recruitment Day

2008-08-28T17:53:00.000-07:00

I'm so glad that I'm one of the 17 fresh grads(in borneo)that were in the August SRD. The briefing was quite long, me and Zaid were there at 130, and it only ends at 7pm.

5.15 a.m. MJ called to wake me up and i'm just glad to hear her voice. Mamai2 pun pat gerak urg, thank u my dear!. Took bath later and got ready by 6, had roti kismis and nescafe and drove to MD100, Piasau Camp.

My turn started at 730, where I've been given the tasks in Shell Aduki and I have to get through and manage the current issue. It was tiring to read tones of texts, but I think I've done ok in the 25 minutes of q&a's. Then there was the career talk for only 10 mins, and there after there was a group meeting. Its around 45 mins untill the press conference for 20 mins. Tired. But Ok. Had Lunch with the shell staffs, hearing to their experience working in shell.

At 2.00, there was the technical presentation for 45 mins. I think I did very poor during that time. And It'll cost me 50% of the marks. Shoots. Who cares, as long as I talk, there is a chance. At least, i have been to the SRD. Its just 1 step before entering Shell.

Today the results will come out. I pray and pray and pray that I'm accepted. It could be my best graduation and raya gift. :)

Aku dan Kamu

2008-08-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

Convocation

At last, after 4 memorable years of hardwork, joy and tears, I've finally graduated from KUiTTHO or UTHM. There's been a lot of memories there, Kembara, Civil Engineers, the sports, and her too. Spent a week in parit raja, with travelling to everywhere seems to be in everyday. JB, Kluang, BP, i sumtimes felt like a taxi driver. But i enjoy it. Have had many pics, many places passed by with friends and family.

The Feeling

History repeats by itself. 4 yrs ago I was in the same place, where I finished matrix, heartbroken and she came into my life and shine it so bright. But the time ends as I graduated from my university. I'm back single and empty. Many things happened in between. A few friends passes by while I was on the peak of my problems with her. That really change how I felt in my relationship. Somehow I do feel that there are also others who cares about me. and sometimes, I am really feel happy just to be appreciated.

The meet up

After the fullday run of convo and travelling to kl, i checked in to the hotel and went out with her. Had a good time, being both single and teasing each other while not knowing where to go. What can I say, the beautiful sexy her still have much effects to melt my heart. Had short chats about the past, present and future. Told her a bit about my "activities". As my previous counselor she should know. Hehe. There was a mix of feelings. She did asked me why is it so hard for me to try to steal her heart back? I dont know what should I say, but I think she knows my answer. I'd really wish I could get her back. But I still dont see anyway that I can win her heart again. What I can say is that the memories stays forever in me.

My room, open air, agora, bb, midnites, raya, hartz, bukit mata kuching,my green car, games at hock lee, her make ups, krim gebu baby johnson(i dont know what the name is) ,chocolate perfume, her laughs, her smile,her hands,her lips,her dresses, the beautiful kebaya, her passion to shopping, spagetti, laksa..everything. Its just the every single thing in the 49 months that I wont erase from me.

I really wish that nite never ends. I really wish that in that nite, she was still mine. I really wish that it was just US graduated, not me and her. I wish there was her hands i'm holding when I took my graduate pics, but then, its just my empty palm. But then, I couldnt say it out loud. Coz I know, the feelings deep in both of us have changed.

I do love her, and I know she loves me, but somehow both are separated. She has him, and I really wish him goodluck. I really hope that he's a better man than me, coz that is the real cost for taking away the best thing that had happened to me. But if sumthing happens to her..he'll be the one that i'll be finding 1st. Ya bukan dendam ok, ya adalah nasihat to him. As for me, I believe watching sepi did gave me sum confidence. There's love anywhere.

Ille
I really wish the best for U and him. Its not easy for me to just give up, but after very deep considerations, I think its not my time anymore. And as a friend, I should say I am ur friend who loves u the most. Dont be single, coz ur love will shine the world. and plz do nt leave the country, coz u'll miss the raya(n me):P.

Its feels like it was the last nite that I could (in a way) date her. I'm still single, but I'll always have respects with other guys who has her heart.

Weeks

2008-08-20T23:35:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting in a cc in parit raja. its so noisy with kids playin games and the internet is quite slow. Completed everything needed for the convo, the house, the car, the robe, simply everything. Still inside I dont really feel the excitement. I'm quite down these days. Maybe the day counts exactly 1 months on Azids bday.

Went to jb on almost everyday. I came on sunday, back to parit on monday, then back to jb, n tuesday making the way back to parit as I've receive no calls from the company that wanted to interview me. That maybe brought my morale down, plus the shell staffs kept on urging me to improve my writing. What the heck!! Told me to write short technical notes yet they wanted details. Is it I'm not that good enuff or they are the ones who dont undertand anythin? What can give on remidials in a geomatical map?? Should I elaborate on the trees, plants and gradients?? Shees.

I'm much more down when I couldnt get a hotel for my parents during my convo. And I had to bring them to just a simple house. I felt guilty really. But atleast I got a home. While I wait at the airport yesterday I saw a husband and wife "salam2" and say good bye to each other while I waited for my friend to arrive. It does not hurt, but it does effect my mood. Simply memories. I really wanted to be happy in the convo but I could not have anythin that I wanted now. My mind is not set, my time is limited, and I dont have much motivation for the interviews.

Did not get a nice sleep last nite, the mosquitoes were too much. I'm just so down. God please make me feel happy. I'm just so blurred and demotivated rite now. I wanted to get bz so I could atleast not feeling the boredem. Did haf chats with many friends. Many advised me to stay cool for a while. Being cool boreds me. If only I had a job, I could have been to perhentian islands, I could have been to genting, I could have been to complte my G7. I want to be happy and hastle free.

Girls?
I dont know. Sometimes its true that I'm too passionate. Maybe being too caring or loving does get my saham down. I just dont know how should I change. Sikkan la mok jd poser bajet dirik playboy, dahla sik ensem, ayat pun sik power, duit pun sikda. After many chats I can admit that now I could not understand what girls really want. But I still love going out with em. I think I'll just be me, and get more dates and then I'll choose. Her?? She'll always be in the list :). Recents?? Sapa msg mestila ku rajin melayan. Sapa mok kuar mestila diembak kuar. I'll never shut any door down untill I'm tied. 1 thing change is that maybe, I couldnt trust them so easily. The world now maybe has more jujur boys compared to girls.

Lalek la. Who cares much about me really? It will only be my family. Others?? Friends maybe.

About 'it', herm. Its complicated. It should only blows to my parents during raya. Coz it will be a different 1st day raya after 5 years. Jalan2 raya? I'll stick only to the gangs. Or maybe I'll go back to kampung abah on 4th day if I dont feel well. Who knows. Time will change my way.

Recent Tunes in my head
- Cuba - Faizal Tahir
- Naluri Lelaki - Samson
- Dont Stop the Music - Rihanna

The New Me??

2008-07-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

Sumwhat there's truth in these words "Lelaki yg setia adalah lelaki yg bermasalah".

I haf to change many things. Greet many good mornins, waiting for others to reply my msg, give more smiles than before. Maybe. haha. i dont know how will i change, but i think i must change. A new me (or the older version when i was in highschool) is much needed. Its just that my quite-boring life in kch is getting much emptier since i am already single. It must be filled a bit. I need new friends. Dont wanna get any partner soon.

Sum of the old friends are always there to go out with. But some guilts rise inside me. Gerek urg ba,lak pa kata gerek daknya. But again...WHO CARES ??? Like what sume advices i've heard, "when things happen, get naughty!!". Xda urg maksa. Daknya mok kuar. Kawan ba.

But 1stly i wanna haf a job to support myself. I've arranged 2 interviews during convo, so maybe i'll be there for quite a longer time. I haff jpp reunion coming up too during merdeka. Kolejian reunion?? I've planned it well, gathered all needed but suddently I'm not in so much mood to do it now. Maybe sumtime in raya. If i work here :). Xpa. Lak merik list ngan dak lain. cdak jak molah.

The End

2008-07-22T18:36:00.000-07:00

July 23rd, 00:03 - I'm back single again after 49 months and 7 days. :). Like I said, things could change. Maybe its better for me and her. There's no more us. Should've seen it a month ago.

Karena Kamu

aku pernah berjanji dulu
tak mungkin akan ragu
pada dirimu ratu
dan aku ada hanyalah kamu
itu saja yang ku mahu
dari sejuta yang ku tahu

tapi kini
dia langsung kembali
dan ku saksi
segalanya kau pujai
apalagi dayanya hati ini
dan kau beri ku fikir tuk kedua kali

karena kamu
ku lepaskan diriku
pergilah bersamamu denganya
tak pernah sesal
takkan pernah ku
ingin melihat kau berduka dengan ku

karena kamu
ku lepaskan dirimu
pergilah bersamamu denganya
yang ku impikan
yang ku inginkan
bahagia hingga akhir hayat tuk kamu

kamu ada di dalam aku
aku didalam rindu
sedang ingatkan kamu
tapi dia ada di dalam kamu
yang mampu hanya satu
tapi ku bukan yang itu

tapi kini
dia langsung kembali
dan ku saksi
segalanya kau pujai
apalagi dayanya hati ini
dan kau beri ku fikir tuk kedua kali

karena kamu
ku lepaskan diriku
pergilah bersamamu denganya
yang ku impikan
yang ku inginkan
bahagia hingga akhir hayat tuk kamu

biarkan aku
biar bisa ku hilang
dia datang membuat mu senang
biarkan ku
biar bisa ku tenang
hiris semua
ku bisa karena kamu

I think

2008-07-20T17:59:00.000-07:00

49 is a number that has lots of meanings. 49 games unbeaten is an Arsenal winning streak record. 49 is my team’s number in the recent explorace out of 300 teams. 49 months is how long syg and me have been together as a couple.

We've had a lil conversation about us that nite. It brought me to think of what I should and what I could do. Yet my answers still drop to a dead end.

Should we go for a date?? Maybe, and i could plan it during the convo weeks. But maybe she’d be bz during that time. Raya?? Its too far away. Things could change. I still need 1 answer.

Should I listen to my friends? Yes and No. In some opinions I maybe should, but i'm not ready to face the consequence if sumthin unexpected happens. Some opinions are only words of those who are "kecewa and sepi". Some are really encouraging, but it seems that too much opinion makes me choose not to hear any of them. I think I’ll do what I need and what I want to do. Menjaga Hati? Jagalah hati. Are there people who care about me?

Should I go out and socialize more? I think I should, but I dont think its the right time. I’m still tied to training and has no job = no money to go out that much. Its just that kuching and "the keadaan" is boring me and i need more friends to hang out with. I dont want "anyone else", I don’t want "teman tp mesra" friends and no..I don’t want RM10K – RM 40K friends either, but I just need ordinary friends. More "Real friends" that has no feelings or business related between. For 4 years I've not been in Kch for more than 1 month, and these 3 months + problems + no money only makes me feel that Kch sux a little.

Should I be sorry for what happened? In my temper and impatient ego part, the dates, the conversations, many things, I blew it all, and I’m really sorry to Syg. But I can’t be sorry for being jealous. What’s love without jealousy? What’s Love without patience? What’s Love with empty hearts? Answer = Sepi. I really want to start it fresh and new.

Should I work there?? Maybe, if it could change things into the rite way. But what is really the rite way? What is rite for Money, Time and Heart? Money can buy heart, Time could change a heart, but Money can’t buy Time. Should I let time decide?? Yes, it will play a little part + patience + love. But too much time will win me nothing. There is a limit.(what am I crapping anyway?). I’ll work either in Sarawak or Johor. That’s it.

Should I think and plan of the future? My future? Yes, coz if we fail to plan, we actually plan to fail in life. But planning without working on it will still give a blank answer. Our future? I still dream of it, but I don’t really know how to plan on it now. I’ll try to work on it bit by bit later. My future will decide Our future.

Should I give up in “that” matter? Never. Coz there's still so much love in me for syg. The only thing NOW that could make me give up is that if she asks me to stop to give in. Like what was said in sepi, “Bila Cinta benar-benar ada, sanggupkah kita membiarkan ia berlalu begitu sahaja” ? But what can I say about the future rite. We can plan and try, and God will decide. And again, Things could change.

Should I sing "Kerna Kamu"? Maybe. Tp ya lagu urg dah give up. N Coz there's still much hope in me.

Should I stop thinking about the puzzle? Enough of the soal hati. The most important thing is that she must know I love her so much. At the same time, I’d better go a bit materialistic in order to plan my new working life. Here’s the list.

This year I want:

 Dapat Kerja Tetap + Gaji Ok!!

 Sony Ericsson K618i

 Savvy (if in Johor) or BLM (in Kuching)

 To Decorate My Room!! (Paint, new looks, carpet, tv, DIVX dvd player)

 Streamyx + Astro in my room!!

 To Paint My Living Room!!

 Change my baju2 lama!! I want shirts!!

In the next step I want (I want at least 2 done before 2015):

 Bumble Bee Color Lotus Elize

 To Buy a small house / Apartment

 To Refurnish / Renovate Lot 93

 Haf A Ford Ranger (Yellow)

 To Get Married by 29 

 To perform Haji early  (adakah aku sudah menjadi alim?)

 An Apple 20 inch Tablet PC

 A White A4 size Laptop

 Sony Mylo or PSP with keyboard

 V-Tendem Kayak

Smile

2008-07-16T21:27:00.000-07:00

2 weeks from now, i'm a full graduate, free from training and affiliations to the university (unless i work there or in unimas). Applications are to be sent by the weekend. I really hope that i'll get a good job. Work is life.

About the pieces missing in us, i think i'll leave it to time to decide. Its been like 2 weeks that we've had good conversations, though not long but at least free from any hassle and high tones. I'm really comfortable with it and I realized the probs were much coming from my temper. I'd really wanna change myself for the best of us.

Happy 49th months anniversary syg.

Sepi The Movie

2008-07-11T21:45:00.000-07:00

Saw the movie last tuesday. I think up to now, it is the best malay film in 2008. Sepi has it own strength and weaknesses. Experienced actors did really well in thier part, Afdlin, Vanida, Nasha, Eja and Tony adds up a lot of spice. But, the plot seems like copying Vantage point, where up to 1 hour of the movie. And the screenplay has lots of common with Cinta, Khabir Baktia's 1st movie.

Love the movie : The story is very very real...really touches the hearts of sepi people especially in the story of Adam the Chef (Afdlin). and Vanida Imran beautifully wears kebaya in almost all her scenes!!

My Rating : B+++ (couldnt give an -A coz too much vantage point and cinta) :)

Breathing Again

2008-06-23T20:05:00.000-07:00

The confessions was shocking. Theres so much that i didnt knew. Thank god now I knew almost everythin, that there's no more doubt for her in me. Things, were really distorted, messed up and screwed. But I really love her.no matter what she'd done. Of all the lost i had in life, loosing my one and only sayang is just unacceptable. My heart will fight for her till it stops to beat.

I convinced her to be strong, as strong as I do I suppose. I want us to change back, I want her to be mine. Only for me. I'm ready to forgive everythin, ready to change myself to suite her move, I'm more than ready to give everythin in my life for her.

The question now. -Time-..-Heart-..-Sacrifice-.. I'd give her the time she needs, I pray her heart will change back only for me, I want her to sacrifice "them" for Us. I'll always pray that she'd be strong for Us. I love Her so much. I hope, I pray, that she'd be strong, and she will only love me too.

Spaces

2008-06-16T23:42:00.000-07:00

After the high tones on our anni, I realized that there are spaces between us. The way we talk, the way we hug, kisz, the silence, the "pening", there are just sumthin missing. I really wanna fill it, but I just dont know how. Drained and washed out, sometimes I'm blurred. We both changed. I took extra holidays this week as I want to spend the most time with her. I hope she will change her mind after the dates. I dont think that i'm the best, and i know i'm just too far form being a perfect date, nor a perfect bf. But I really want her only for me. I love U so much baby. I really do.

The Anniversary

2008-06-12T18:00:00.000-07:00

June 15th. Its almost 4 years that we've been together. For some, the relation would be matured enuff.

I'm so happy that she's comin back. At the same time I'm also sad. Our time is counting. Somewhere inside, it feels like waitng for a court verdict. It'll be a New Begining for "Us"...

I cancelled my trip to kl in the weekend, hoping that she'd come earlier. But she'll only be back on sunday. She's in the ride with him to kl now. 2 days, mayb she needs time with him, I dont know. I really envy him, he has more time with her than what i had. At work, in kerteh, roadtrips, kuantan, now kl. Knowing she's going back to kerteh with him in the week after really signal me smnthin.

We'll have very little time in kch next week. I'll be off to miri on monday. Its another interview that i cant afford to miss. then it'll be a site visit on weds. Thursday and friday is the only time i'll have. with i'm working it'll be evenings only. so short of time. will it be settled then?? i'll just could wait for her decision.

With these things, i couldnt really plan anythin. celebrate anni? ready for interview? site visit? settle problem? I'd love to pull out her words.
"The situation makes it hard". Hard for me to have my time only for her.

I'm really sorry syg. I really love u so much. But I also need to have my things done too.

Bla bla bla..lalalala......

2008-06-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the engineer's chair while he is away is not as boring as it looks to be. I have letters to read, things to be taken care, next 2 weeks I have a site meeting to go. Yeah!! I'm just a trainee of course, but in a way, I like the feeling to be an engineer. Last week was quite a punch for me, not only dealing with personal probs but also with my friends. I want to be a professional, not an entraupuener for this time being. I want to have relaxing nights rather than talking and thinking about business. I dont want my nights to be my days.

The Jog

There was 1 day when I jog at the park, I heard my friends talking about a girl.

"Wow, such a cute girl, rugi na nya dah ada gerek!".

The evil Me quickly accidently responded to my friend,

"Who cares about her having a boyfriend??, By anyluck you can overtake her BF so easily even if they have been together for 7 years..Haha"..

My friend looked at me and sigh "why you sound so differently nowadays??" And I just sighed. I dont know, it just came out from my mouth. What they dont know is that it is the pain talking.

The Feelings

Its been a few nights that we have a very little conversation. After her confession that day, I feel like I will be getting on and over with it, I dont feel that much jealous anymore, that special "feeling" when u haf sum1 in your life is much less than before, I don't feel that much eager to wait till mdnite to talk, actually I'm blurred what I feel about the "Us". ...I Love Her...But.........what???. The spark still burns like fire, but the light fades as it is covered with shades of pain and rage. I still really love her but there's too many doubts, too many questions playin in my mind.

Why did I went mad in our date and then weeks later? Why did I suddently become aggressively jealous? Because for 3 years, she could cope resisting other men. For more than 3 years me as a young man, who also has lil feelings to other beautiful girls, I could resist them and focused and surrender my whole love to just 1. Her. The things, the quarells we had, really made "US" forget that we have had so much love, we had so much beautiful memories.

Bz??

She compared my "b-z-ness" in the times when I was buisy climbing mountains. Yet I cant compare her time with how I manage to spend time with her along that way. I have no flings with any of the kembara girls even I have been with them for so long, even they share so much my interest and even they are so near to me if I need any attention. I refused to take that attention. Why? Its not that I'm so pemalu or I dont wanna mix around them too close,..Because I care so much about her, I dont wanna hurt her and I dont wanna make her feeling like i'm dividing my love for her. But then, its an old story now.

The thing is, she dont really know what she feels about me. A month ago she assured me, that if anythin happens, We will always be together.
But now She kept on telling me that she cant choose. Now she's telling that he has something that I dont.
If that is the answer, I assume that she is siding her new love, she's choosing him. Why? Because he shouldn't be in the picture AT ALL if she didn't start this. Did i care what she has or what she didnt have in her? NO, coz I know there's nobody perfect, I'm confident that she'll improve, and I love her so much.

Now,I dont really know what is going to happen. For months I've heard about her careers, her needs to socialize. 3 months of his attention scrapped all my love in more than 3 years. The alasan had always been "ktk xpaham my working hours, my career, my job, my needs, my time"....But it ends up that she has another man waiting. I can undertand the feeling being bz, I understand and respect the working hours, but what I dont understand is the part of having another guy. I've been that bz before with my club, or when i worked before in PLKN, but I still had only 1 girl in my heart, Her.

Hurts

It hurts much when I knew she's sumwhere else when she told me it there's much work in the office. It hurts more when a conversation suddently stops, just becoz "he" ranged her or she is with him. What is so great about him?? I really wanna know. For months, My calls had always been bad. It will end up she's being bored or mad. I just dont know why. It wasnt that bad before April. I dont know when they've started, I dont know what big mistake did really I made, I dont know what did i am so lacked behind. I didnt knew that I sucked. Coz we hardly talk to each other. Now, I dont really see that she enjoyed my attention anymore compared to his.

I really feel like i'm "terhegeh-hegeh"-"hidung tak mancung pipi tersorong-sorong" boyfriend. I dont know what I am now to her now. Treated that way I dont feel that much being like a boyfriend to a girl, anymore.

"Bunga Bukan Sekuntum, Kumbang Bukan Seekor, Patah Tumbuh Hilang Berganti"...Life is not that easy like the peribahasa. I think its true that we cant beat the 1st love, especially when we give everything into it. I've been dating many girls before I met her, she is my 1st love. The only girl I thought that can i really love, and the only one that can really undertsands me. But things changed. Half of me keep on pumping the thoughts of there is still a chance to give in, yet the other bad half is telling me to go on.

I feel...

Love? Pain? I'm too tired, exhausted to think as I have so much elso to think about. My goals, my aims. Its a bit jadded, thinking about this makes me unsettled, I cant even get anything done well like what I used to do things. But she must know that, whatever it is..
I will always love her. No matter what happened, no matter what she'd done. Coz I know I'm the only 1 who can love her the best.

I think I'm done with walking around with my head down, thinking about her, with hearts crying over happened. I also have my family to help to, I also have a career to build. What I want now is just to have sometime with her and hear her final word, before I can make my own decision. I need a new era of living the life my way. I want my life back. I need a girl. I need my girl back.

Life is Short. Being rich, having popularity, I dont think its important. I just want to be happy.

Incubus Vs Hujan

2008-05-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

Incubus - Love Hurts

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast to truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy

My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in LA

Sometimes when I'm alone
I wonder, is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine?

I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone
I wonder is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive

Without love I won't survive

Hujan - Aku Skandal

Kan ku berikan semua.
Agar kau gembira sentiasa
Engkau tetap pergi.
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri.

Jangan disimpan tiada rahsia.
Katakan saja ku terima
Engku tetap pergi
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri.

Waktu duka dulu kita lalui bersama.
Pagi yang bagaikan malam ditemani bintang terang
Hancur hati bila kau undurkan diri.
Meninggalkan daku, meninggalkan daku sendiri.

Senyuman manis dibawa angin
Ku tunggu dikau terasa dingin
Engkau tetap pergi
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri

New Light

2008-05-27T17:52:00.000-07:00

I hope the new light will continue to shine, and push away the conflicts. I want the happy life back.

Faizal Tahir - Sampai Syurga

ku membenarkan jiwaku tuk mencintaimu
ku persembahkan hidupku
tuk bersama kamu
dan diriku...untuk kamu
belum pernah ku merasai begitu

semua itu telah berlalu
harapan ku palsu
dan mungkin hari yang satu
terus ku tertunggu
dihatiku..masih kamu
belum pernah ku ingin terus menunggu

aku lemah tanpa kamu
ku ingin mu dampingiku
aku fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
sampai syurga ku menunggu
sampai syurga kucintamu
hanya satu
hanya kamu

ku membiarkan hatiku tuk merinduimu
ku menghamparkan sakitku tuk tatapan kamu
bersamamu...harapanku
hilang dlm terang yang membutakanku

dan segalanya yang ku ada
ku berikan semua
untuk dirimu saja
ku mahu dirimu, bahagia tuk selamanya
biar sampai syurga
aku menunggu cinta darimu
agar ku sempurna

namun aku tetap aku
yang terbaik tuk diriku
hanya satu

I Know

2008-05-26T01:08:00.000-07:00

Went through some old cd's when i listened to this track..didn't copy all the lyrics coz it doesnt suite me...and i bite some too

Mario Evans - I dont Wanna Know

I wanna know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
and if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
Oh baby, I want to know.

Did he touch you better than me?
Did he watch you fall asleep?
Did he show you all those things? and the things you do to me
If you're better off that way
Then it's more than I can say.

I know when your where-abouts or how you movin'.
I know when you're in the house or when you crusin'.
It's been proven - My love you abusin'.
I can't understand how a man got you choosin'.
Undecided, I came and provided my,
Undivided, you came and denied it.
Don't even try it I know when you lyin'.
Don't even do that I know why you cryin'.
I'm not applyin no pressure,I just want to let you know,
That I don't want to let you go.
And I don't want to let you leave.
Can't say I didn't let you breath.
Gave you extra cheese. put you in a SUV.
You wanted ice - so I made you freeze.
Made you hot like the West Indies.
Now it's time you invest in me.

Years

2008-05-25T17:45:00.000-07:00

Does years really count? Does it really shows how long or how short something is? Well from what I’ve seen, and what hit me, it’s a No. We maybe try to deny it but it’s true.

Having 4 years in a relationship doesn’t mean u will end up happy. That’s what Time teaches me. Thank god for granting my wish, for making me knowing the truth. Yesterday it was talks about the spark is dying. Today, its much more of a different talk. The spark, it would had been poured with water if 1 chose to be unfair, chose to have excuses, chose to choose to be happy with others. For so long I have been respecting other people's love, but now it knocked my door, slapped me in the face to wake me up and change my mind. Somehow Love and Respect is just getting cheap. Easy to buy or to be let gone. Where sweet talks can easily take over a loved heart.

Boring, lonely, needs attention. When couples are separated by distance they'll feel just the same, but it is not the things that I cant handle. I tried my best to fill in, I tried changing and adapting, I want to make life much better. But does it worth when there's no space, no chances given to those who tried, when there's no appreciation for had been done. Excuses been given, but does it solve the problem? No. Action will always speak louder than words. The spark is now burning its memories just like candles burning the wax to keep it alive. Can it last forever?

I’m just in the position of being incapable, I have no funds, I’m in great distances, and I have not yet started a career. What I have foreseen in my nightmares, are showing its truths. 4 years gave me a life that i hoped it could last. Now its just a bittersweet memories.

I’ll wait till the day we will choose our path. Will it then be Us? Or it will the be just me?

Love Hurts. Pain will kiss me strong. And life must go on.

Tired

2008-05-20T21:16:00.000-07:00

Many things had been tiring me nowadays. conflict, trust, dreams, aims, careers, prospects, business, social, technology, lies.

Just too many.

My once happy and free mind had been tsunamically washed with all of it. i want to be positive about everything but some pictures are getting clearer.

I need to be myself again. I need to stand and rise myself. I need to be prepared. I need a new life.

Many Words of advices been heard. Patience are needed. So as Trust. But its easier said than done. Well, can we control a volcano from erupting forever? Can we even stop a 1 minute earthquake?

I just hate technology. It can be wrong or missed, but it never lies. Well, technology never promise anything, but they help human untill it is broken. Not like promises, it is always meant to be broken.

I'm babbling, i want to get sum sleep at home.

Kuching oh Kuching

2008-05-19T01:01:00.000-07:00

Today

I was really excited to finish my studies and come back to kch earlier this month. Never new that it would be quite boring. With friends fewer around than ever, its hard to find many colleagues that can go out together when u want to.

Changes

Nothing much. After 4 months at johor, the only new thing is The Spring and Bolouvard shoping Mall. Anway, rainforest festival is around the corner 24-25th May (why to they have to do it when i'm broke)

People change alot mayb. Met few old friends. Some are doing business, some work in offices. Not much going outs comes free, some people want companions when they already have the "one" just around. Some outings are mainly business. Sometimes i'm not comfy, sometimes i feel stucked in the in betweens of feelings, intentions and my own boredem....Making me feeling i'm a stranger in my own place. I need my gangs badly, and of course i miss syg so much.

I went around Kch town centre yesterday. Had short sleep.Things flew in and outs.

Its been cold. Somewhat somewhere is empty, left behind or missing. I dont know what i should do, what i need to know, who to talk to, what i need to care, what to be taken care. I dont know what i want, what i feel when many things seems blurr and distracted..Too many.

$$$$$

It gets low everyday. hahaha...i need a job as soon as a step out of UTHM holding my certificates!!

Keyboard

I hate this keyboard. I'm at satok cc. though its cheap as i surf for only RM1 pr hour, but the keyboard sux.

Songs In My Mind

2008-05-15T18:01:00.000-07:00

Song That Reminds Me of Her

With You - Chris Brown
Ku Mahu Kau Tahu - Hujan
Pari-Pari Di Bawah Angin - Meet Uncle Hussein
Ketulusan Hati - Anuar Zain
Cinta Antara Kita - Duta & Baizura Kahar
Sempurna - Andra and The Backbones

Other songs that plays on the mp3

Halusinasi - Meet Uncle Hussein
Hampir - Hujan
Menjaga Hati - Yovie n Nuno
Sampai Syurga - Faizal Tahir
Aku Skandal - Hujan

Only when we listen, then we can feel.

Something New

2008-05-15T01:20:00.037-07:00

I've had new progresses in my internships.more work, more project involvement, more studies and revisions.

I think i need extra income. Graduation day, dates all needs money. Just where on earth can i korek duit in this 3 mnths. Surely not frm my intern.the sum is too small.huhu..plz help me!! i'll return the favour when i'm senang!!

I'm glad cyg called me back after our "talk" yesterday. I missed her so much even we call each other everyday. If only i could work near her. so we could be like a very normal couple that is more dating. Except during holidays where we "hentam" date time everyday at kuching, we only manage to have 7 or 8 dates at most in a year. so mayb if we work together or nearer, we could atleast date at weekends. i love her so much.