If

Cheeszzzeeee...Woke up early after such a sweet nightmare (again)....I guess that its meaning really came true...last year's dream did came true though I did try everythin to save it.....this year's too... That same flashy light before I'm wakened up by reflect.

The past is somehow relevant. Depends for which road taken. My road took me here. And now I'm taking a new path to make through. I'll take take the rough and unpaved before turning it into a highway.. ;).

Alhamdulillah. I'm still alive. And thank Allah the AlMighty for giving me the strength.... But if.....

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If I Die Tonite (Lyrics are bitten from the original Too Phat Songs)

If I die tonight What would I do
On my last day I know I'd wake early
In the morn' for crack of dawn's last pray
Then prolly go for breakfast like I used to do
Satok’s Laksa And Rojak Kucei would do
Wishin it’d be with my boo


And friends from way back
Neighborhood homies extended famly
They only know me as F1 Mat
With that Red Cap
Drivin' that white 1536 to school
Soccer's Zul with Nesta’s class
I’ll tackle the ball fools


Then I'd come back to the crib Tidy up a bit
Y'all know my room's messy though classy
Start arrange my ish…Line up my jerseys one by one
Start with Gunners And end with them both Milans
Put a picture on the map of which mount
With the name of each done
I think I know my hobbies
And who I’m with which one


Get on the phone And holla' at everybody
It's nearly eve gots to have tea
With the family
Then spend the last day I don't know
Try do a million other things
Hoping somehow time will slow


I guess what I'm trying to say is
Take everyday Like it was your last
Work towards your dreams Before you pass
And have a blast While you at it
'Cause we don't know When we go go
So make the best of it
Just keep it real to yourself
And to all people
If y'all lost somebody before
Remember there'll be a sequel


If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories



Well if I die tonight
I wonder what it’ll be tomorrow
Nobody cries I know there’ll be no sorrow
'Cause I ain't been
The best of men
The best of friends
The best of mom and daddy's last son
The best of anything
I aint ever been number one


If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven by all the people
I been slackin' with when I was livin'?
Those who I hurt their hearts
Took advantage of and even lied to
Hug you one last time for forgiveness
Yeah I would like to


If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident Then suddenly...
Pause?


If I die tonight
I wonder who would get To keep my caps and shoes
Jerseys, even my little dim-sum blue tiger too
Get my cell phone Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Matt
He passed away last night And pray he rest in peace


If I die tonight
Would you think of my room when you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning But then I never knew


If I die tonight
What would happen to my nice and nephews
How long would it take
For them to remember they had an Usu?... damn...
At Pak Amit’s
Would they still order the same kolok mee I love to?
Things I wish I knew...



If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories




A cute lil' thing to many eyes
To me you were simply a beautiful thing
I tell no lies
We went from mere invisible friends
To pals real tight
Rendezvous up on the net
To chitty chat all night
I used to pick you up
Until you got your own ride
A slammin' 4 door junkie crip
A green two dub seven lookin' all slick
Remember when I asked why this
You said because it's real nice
But its blue.. The bet none got prized



That one Dream
I had in 05' November
Made me happy but upset...Dad's words I’ll always remember
Son..U’ll always achieve
Those were’nt much for you
Yet most U’ll give it away
Might be the price you’ll pay
Esp to those you love and care
I mustn’t take life for granted
Think deep through, and act quick
Death you never plan it



I’m missin the days with my fellas for real
Though time squeeze make way pass
A true friendship will never cease...
Love...